nurulhannaaaaaaaaaaaa!

2010-10-17T02:06:00.002+08:00

REJOICE! :D

ive updated my blog finally after being dead fr sooo long! xD

so here.

ive changed song agaain! :D
add my ACTIVE blog link!
PUT MY CBOX BACK UP! xD
so go along and tag!

and th reason i did my cbox like that is because i wannawanna avoid those ads.
its a bit of an eyesore~ xD

oke if you cant fund me here, go there instead!

CLICKCLICK!

and leave lots of love there!

th perfect boyfriend ♥

2010-10-17T01:05:00.005+08:00

43 things a girl wishes their boyfriend knew

♥

♥ #1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
♥ #2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.
♥ #3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.
♥ #4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
♥ #5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
♥ #6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight and don't let her go.
♥ #7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
♥ #8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
♥ #9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
♥ #10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.
♥ #11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.
♥ #12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
♥ #13 When she's scared, protect her.
♥ #14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
♥ #15 When she steals your favourite jacket , let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
♥ #16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
♥ #17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
♥ #18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
♥ #19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could.
♥ #20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers understand.
♥ #21 When she bumbs into you, bumb into her back and make her laugh.
♥ #22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
♥ #23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don't look away until she does.
♥ #24 Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.
♥ #25 Don't let her have the last word.
♥ #26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
♥ #27 Say you love her more that she could ever love you.
♥ #28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
♥ #29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.
♥ #30 When she says she's okay, don't believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 years later she'll remember it.
♥ #31 Call her at 12:00 am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
♥ #32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
♥ #33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
♥ #34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.
♥ #35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
♥ #36 Watch her favourite movie with her or her favourite show even if you think it's stupid.
♥ #37 Let her into your world.
♥ #38 Let her wear your clothes.
♥ #39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
♥ #40 Let her know she's important.
♥ #41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
♥ #42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is "Who's ass am I kicking today, baby?"
♥ #43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too.

can i add another one?

♥#44 Dont ask her why she loves you, she just do.

read this from burnpaperburn@bs.com.
i have no idea why,but it moved me to tears.
the perfect boyfriends any girl whould be so lucky to have one.

i wished to have one like that too.
it must be nice.

FEEL FREE TO DROP BY!

2010-10-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

so as you people can see.
ive not been updating like regularly.
yes,im basically lazy to update this blog of mine.

but fret not.

below is th blog link of this blog me and my hunnys come out with to just hang around.
and im very active there! :D
so you can drop by and while youre at it, leave some love and kisses @ our chattango.
i will leave th link on top too, just below my twitter updates.
so you can just click on th banner and off youu goo to th blog.
easy huh?
go check out what crazy things th 7 of us are up to. xD

fr a start, click on this banner hereee to pay a visit!

lovelovelove!

PERSONAL OPINION

2010-10-04T22:19:00.005+08:00

waaah.
its really been awhile.
and i bet my whole life on it that no ones gonna read my blog ever again.
LOL, (there goes my dream to be a celebrity blogger)
oke fk that dream, i didnt even thougth about htat when i first made this blog which is like,what?
500 million donkey years ago?

im gonna go some random ranting here.
and some serious ones or stuffs thats been in my mind since like forever.
plus, I HAVE A THIRD PIERCING ON MY LEFT LOBE, just like LEEKISEOP.
not like its a big of a deal or something.
shall go fr my conch piercing soon.
also on my left ear, because personally, i find it ugly(?) oke no, not really nice to have all kind of piercing like on both ears all over th place. personal opinion. you can have yr say~ :D
im just saying.

and my holidays are over so its th start of term 3 fr me.
힘내, hannaaaa! :D

so anyway,
back to my serious ranting.
oh you can stop reading here if you want IF you're an anti-kpop fan.
OR you listen to music by th artiste face.
oke,fine music in general.
and i think im gonna vulgar here?
oke so not me.
but it has been in my mind since forever.

so MUSIC.
i guess i have ranted about this before, about how one listen to songs that makes YOU happy.
not songs that makes you look cool.
because at th end of th day,its this songs that you listen to is what makes yo a person/happy.
so i dont see a fking reason to hate or condemn a certain genre of music.
if thats th music genre that makes them feel confident, so be it.
and having you hating it like it th end of th world/condemn that genre infront of that person, dont you think you are pushing down th persons level of confidence.
so, you have yr on genre that you like, and I have th genre that i like.
it does not bring harm to yr fcking life, so back off.
we're fine with music genres pushed out of th way.
personal opinion. getoverit.

another thing that irks me.
people hating singers/artiste because theyre just goddamn ugly that they cant even stand it.
so heres th point, i dont even get it why you listen to a group because theyre pretty and all that and hate a group because theyre just that ugly yr eyes can roll off yr sockets? UGLY? YOU LISTEN TO THEIR MUSIC NOT THEIR FACE.

so yoo dont go "ew,theyre ugly i dont like them." when you havent even hear their songs.w t f? i dont evenknow this people exists.
oke im being hypocrite if im saying this but at time i do this, like why i dont listen to Slipknot, oke i listen to their songs, but i dont really fancy their concept with scary masks and all. and yes, i dont really favour girls generation but i cnt deny th fact th vocals of some members when they sing ballads are nice.
personal opinion. just stating.you have yr right to differ.

on a random note, god damn it.2NE1 is awesome shit, so what if they dont appeal to you.they make music BETTER than yr pretty girl groups~ D: JUSTSTATING~

so im not a-die-hard -core-until-i-wanna-stalk-them-and-go-to-any-kpop-concert of a k-pop fan. i know things here and there. and i kindda enjoy them like last two years? well apart fr th bigbang fact~ thats besides th point.
youre new to th kpop fad, and youre snatching every opportunity to catch each and every artiste that comes here in SG. w t f? does money really come from th sky fr you? prolly you just wanna go fr th thrill of it? so if people like you are going, what would that make th oldtimekpopfans? th tix are gone even before they click "more info" in ticketing information. itskinddafrustratingfrthem. no, i dont go to every fcking kpop concert here. ive only been to U-KISS. period.dont even mention th KPOP NIGHT CONCERT. and yes i care theres bigbang, but i aint gonna spend 500000 million bucks because theyre stripping money off us, IF YOU DONT NOTICE. i'd rather save up fr some big rock concert that really rock th world~ SERIOUSLY. tsk. or pay fr LADY GAGAs dress and buy th meat dress from her and be a fashion icon. oke no.
personal opinion. JUST STATING. please, you can beg to differ.

and please, you dont go "yrmumjustgotraped group is better. no no! i insist yrmumjustgotraped group is better. NOOOOOOOOOO! theyre like so good they can rule th world or get nominated as president." (oke th yrmumjustgotraped is some random dirty things i come out with,in other words its a random group name la!) fk you. so what if you think youre better. i choose to differ. so stop forcing me to insist that group you worship like th president is th best because theres other singers that i think waaaaaaaaaay deserve to be called "king/queen of th music industry" PERSONAL OPINION. you can take it yr way and think th opposite.

goddamnitman,
youre fking new, and youre boasting and acting like you know it all.
and you freaking think i care?
if youre gonna let yr BIG ego get in th way between you and me, then you should like go to a corner and cry yr lungs out.
because i dont care if you can kick a ball like 803580 yards awaaay, you can sing like 3 falsettos, you can swim like 9000 million km and never get tired. i dont care.
simply because i can do 7000 thousand better things than you can.everyone is special in their own way.
so you dont show that snobbish/arrogant face of yours like you rule th world when you can do things im baaaad at better than i do.
why not let yr guards down and just teach/aid/help those you really wants to learn.
you gain more knowledge by sharing them.
not boasting about them, dang it will not lead to to anywhere.
PERSONAL OPINION JUST STATING.

p.s. i aint referring to anything or anyone in this post. its just stuffs that randomly appear in my brain seeing comments, people reactions watching hate videos hearing from my friends, reading tweets reading on some random site etc. some are my opinions/replies to some confession videos i came across with or confession sites. you can actually read which one is just a matter of opinion, which is me defending my friends,by putting myself in my friends shoes. yes i have that much time on my hands.

and no hard feelings ey.
im just stating a point in which one can choose to agree or otherwise.

2010-10-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

ALL SET AND READY TO GO! ;D
bugis hereee i comeee~

its been long.

2010-09-20T21:08:00.003+08:00

"so tell me why i am still hoping.
when i can never have th courage to go up to you.
tell me why do i still insist.
when i know you will never look at my direction.
LOVE?
fat hope."

its been really long huh?
*sighs.
i dont know what i will do to this blog.
its not that im super busy that i cant blog at all,its just that, im super duper lazy to blog. D:
i know,why do i still keep it then right?
LOL,because at times, like now, i totally will feel like blogging.

i think im gonna change my song, and remove th tagboard.
geez,these people just cant stop flooding my cbox. i give up!

exams week.
menu planning and pricing down!
principles of baking and kitchen organisation to goooo~
and i have yet to start on almost any of them~ D:
booooooo~
so tmr will be study full swing daay!
shall mug like theres no tmr! :D

dont ask about life.
im barely surviving.
other than that, its kindda empty, minus th fact that i have awesome friends.
just.empty.period.

gonna run along nowz! :D
see you fornever soon!

2010-08-09T01:49:00.002+08:00

"at times, i wish god would kill me at my darkest days.
and revive me when th days gets better.
so i wont have to shed a single tear."

2010-08-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

HELLOHELLO! :D
I HAVE CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!
im a happy girl now.

and mommayee got me a purple kitchen aid mixer! :D
andandand
IM GONNA MEET MY U-KISS @ SG GIRLS ON SATURDAYYYY! :D EXCITEDDDD! :D

this girls plussss sheilaaa! :D
hahaha. tak tau pulak kalau nurul coming down.
anddd zanaa couldnt make it too~ D:
ohh,its okeee! xD

and im really hoping to see my nadhirah and my azlin and my sofia and my nadhilah! :D
hanna rinduu you all! D: D:

and yes,i know my blog just died.
i should just delete my CBOX.
th spam is very irritating~
TSKKK!

okeeeee.
byeeeeeeeeeeee~ :D

PITCH BLACK.

2010-07-28T12:34:00.002+08:00

thoughts i shouldnt be thinking about
when it all falls apart.
why does if feel like my whole life just blacked out?

want it so badly that it hurts

2010-07-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

"I don't want to live
To waste another day
Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made
Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside
I don't want to fall and say I lost it all
Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall
Leaving pieces of me behind
And I feel like I'm breaking inside"

who might have imagined.
while i think of going after my dreams,
i thought of th whole journey being a bliss,
and to be doing something i really love and enjoy,
its just pure happiness.

well it isnt.
because here comes something that i remembered from someone who once told me.
in life, there musnt be 'ifs' and 'maybes'
because if its going to happen, it will definately happen.
theres no such think as luck as when you succeed, it is from yr own sweat and blood.
dont give up because there are obstacles in the way, to huge fr you to handle.
its gonna push you down, uts gonna break you apart.its gonna pull away tr dreams and drag away yr hopes.
but if you really want it, so so much. hang onto it.
hold on to th dream that you have always want to achieve so tight that no one can ever come in between to break it apart and snatch it away.
success comes with patience and hardwork.

well of course those didnt only come from one person.
just th many others that come and go in my life.
in th first place,
being a pastry chef have never crossed my mind before while i was a kid.
its always me being an athlete or me being somewhere in th arts industry.
and its funny how that one person, one event just turn it all around, and here i am pursuing my dream to be a pastry chef.

th thought of me joining the industry scares me.
at th same time, it will be an adventure worthwhile and of a life time.
god knows what i will experience in future.
but i know what god have planned fr me is always fr th better.
i shall be stronger after each failures.
and i shall be headstrong after each experience.

depressing?
*sighs.

AND JUST WHEN I NEED MY GUITAR TH MOST~
th string Snapped.
damn you G-STRING! D:
imma get a new set of strings and restring my guitar.
and after that i shall play it like as if ive not been playing guitar fr months.

and i miss cooking so badly i can die~! D:
yesyes,i know i bale,like almost everyday.
but hey~
cooking and baking are two different things! D:
I WANNA COOOOOOOOOOOOOK! xD
and no,i did not and will never ever get sick and tired of baking,mind you.
baking, IS JOY! :D

im lazyy to update this blog of mine these days.
so i shall point you to my twitter *points upwards.
see that twitter box over there?
IM GOD DAMN active there.
so check me out there.
heheee~ :D :D

misses!
LOVES! <3

2010-06-28T14:42:00.003+08:00

"when you cry, run to me.
and i shall be with you to wipe your tears.
if i cant be any help to comfort you,
i shall share your tears and pain.
because you know,
i will always be there for you,no matter what."

this i swear,because you,my friends, are my world.
♥

U U U U-KISS AND BRAVESOUND BRAVESOUND~!

2010-06-22T01:05:00.003+08:00

20th JUNE 2010 U-KISS FAN MEET
@ SINGAPORE, IMM GARDEN PLAZA
4PM

21st JUNE 2010 U-KISS SHOWCASE
@SINGAPORE, ST.JAMES POWERSTATION~
7PM

im going spastic overrrrr U-KISS~ ;D
so, 20th-21st JUNE 2010 willl neverrrrr be forgotten~ ;D

Fan Account plus what happen during both events follows after this post.
see when ever im freee~ ;D

I LOVE KISEOP and KIBUM
and SOO HYUN is damn friendlyyyy~ ;D

ENGLISH~!

2010-06-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

THIS IS ENTIRELY ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT.
haha, note that things are a little messy.
individual posts are in various colours and in blockquotes.
the first blockquote will be what happen for today.
thus it will be th very top.
and as i decend down,it will go by what happen kind of
chronologically.~ ^__^V
get me?
so hereeee i go~ <3

TODAY WAS PRACTICAL EXAMINATION.
I don't know why, but all i can say is that;
I came with a positive mindset, all geared up for whatever that comes what may. I ended up going home feeling so down. Maybe my expectations towards myself is too high and i ended up dissapointing no one but myself.
So we did Choux Pastry, Bread as well as Buttercake. All was fine for me. Only we kind of dragged the time too much and ended really really late.
Hmmm, should have listen to what Chef said, about putting Bread as out first priority so as to not end late.
But you know, when we all work with pressure, we tend to do things the way we think it is right. I dont know, but i just felt i could have done better for thePractical.
YES, this dissapointment still overwhelms me.
I shall get over and done with, and learn from mistakes right.
*gives pat on backs.
i think my group have done a good job for the practical. ^__^V
Always look on the brightside of life~
FIGHTING~! ^__^ \m/

"what am i to do when the world as i know it turns its back on me. and im trying very hard to keep the passion burning strong and not to die with time. no one told me life is ever gonna be this hard.and i dont know that it will be this hard and yet i have come so far." ♥ keep moving on.

/edit

ITS A PUFF PASTRY AFFAIR~! xD
Did you know?
PUFF PASTRY CLOGGED UP YOUR ARTERIES DUE TO ITS SUPERRRRR HIGH AMOUNT OF TRANS FAT CONTENT. SO IT MEANS, SHORTER LIFE SPAN~! D;
Plus, the most awesome and saddest fact is that- Taro turnover that i loooooove so much from Burger King is a Puff Pastryy, right? haha, i dont know. Syaffyy said it was Puff pastry. I have been decreasing my life span on earth by eating too much of it~
wahhhhh~ die die die.
so what is this about Puff Pastry?
We did Puff Pastry this week and guess what is THE SUPER MAIN ingredient in it? Yeappp, Pastry Margerine. We have to place a whole block of 250gm of Pastry margerine in the dough and laminate it to loads of layers.
God knows how heartbroken i was getting to know that fact.
So now think before buying them alright?
PROJECTS are almost doneeee~
Soon Hannaaaaaa is going to be a happy happy happy happy girl.
*skips around in circles.
So i got my Principles of Baking project down~
FHH and EFK down sooooon too~
*HAPPINESS OVERLOADS!

PILES AND HEAPS OF PROJECTS~ !♥
Yet, Hannaaaa is having a great time in school thanks to awesome classmates and bestest collection of girlfriends that neverrrrr fail to colour my dull life.
School life for me have been going on fine.
Infact, its a notch higher than that.
SUPER FUN?
Apple Pies, Blueberry Pieeee, Fruit Tarts FOR THE WIN~! xD
Its all about the sweet pasteee~
Seriously, i think right, after all this weeks and months I spend in school right,
I'm not only going to gain weight, but I think i will stop eating Pastry products all together.
You know why? Because i think i know whats going into the product.
Hehehe, we shall see huh?
So school days have come and go.
thus,you know, things happen at times and at times poor me cannot manage to grasp the whole situation.
I have never been this happy in school.
Wait, my previous two lines sounds contradicting.
Oh well.
Long story cut short, school have been going oh-so-well for me.
Somehow, i think i have made the right choice coming heree.
Well, at the very least, i feel belonged~

FIRST ENTRY FOR ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT~!♥
*squeeeeealssssss~!
for some reason, i think I am so going to love this assignment with all my heart.
First reason is because, I finally got a reason to update my blog.
As you can see hereee, my blog almost died or something due to my school.
Even if I have no school or end or starts school late, my fingers all got jam when it comes to blogging.
Back on track, back on track~
SCHOOL HAVE BEEN AWESOME~!
Honestly! ;D
I learnt to bake loads of stuff i thought i can never bake.
Things like, BREAD~! or PIZZA DOUGH~!
As you know, i used to take Food and Nurtirion in school right?
and boy do i have to tell you how my pizza dough was like.
hahaha, im sure you guys will shake head~ ;D
though my first bread doesnt turn out that well, to me.
still, in Pastry and Baking or whatever it is.
PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT~! ;D
I am confident that i will somehow made it to one perfect loaf of bread.
At times right, i kind of feel the pressure as at times teachers teach in a speed where i think faster that F1~
haha, got to really catch up,huh?
*vavavroooooooom~
im going to read up what i learn today.
and i hope its going to be productive.
*prays hardddd~
byeeeee~

PICTURES WILL FOLLOW IN NEXT POST ALRIGHT? <3

2010-06-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

hellooo my fellow readers~!
i dont even know if ANYONE reads this lonely blog over here
and soo the pictuer above.
im supposed to post it up like 500000 miliion years agoo.
but my hands anf fingers drop off from my bodyy.
so yeappp, no blogging since forever.

HOWEVER!
im gonnna release 4 more BLOCKQUOTED entries that i typed previously
and not yet posted~
hahahaaaa.why four.
because the last one or first whichh ever you want to put it as,
will make its debut tonight!
haha.
okehhh no.
i mean, one of the post that i am supposed to post up about school would be out tonight.
the other four are in BLOCKQUOTES
andddddd, i dont even remember which is which.
so sorry people,it might get confusing as they are NO datesss~
haha.
now cry~
chehhh!
wondering what im yak yakking about?
remember the english assignment i told you people last entry?
yeappp, those post are for my assignments.
so yeapp.
im a happy girl.
its almost doneee~
hahaha.
so nowwww.
for th last and finaaaaal post.

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!
All th 10 weeks i spent in school.
Doing nothing but pursuing on something i really have passion to do.
All comes down to this one dayyy~
Okay.
Stop it. It sounds like some competition result show.
Anyway, tomorrow, i'm going to have my PRACTICAL EXAMINATION~
I am excited,that i swear.
This is because, to me, every test or exam is another way for me to challenge myself and really work under pressure.
Its not like I didn't work under pressure during IS all this while or anything. But baking 3 items in 5 hours, THAT is one simple challenge. Don't you think so?
So imagine if i am to be a Pastry Chef and i have to handle like fifty billion orders everyday, okay, again I'm exaggerating, but still, you get my point? Handling LOADS of orders is one hell of a challenge. So I have got to prepare myself right?
White Sandwich Bread, Choux Pastry and Butter Cake.
3 Items, 5 hours.
I really wonder how i will fair.
So, wish me luck, darlings~
OH, and i had my Essentials of Food Knowledge presentation just now. For now, all i can say is. OVER AND DONE WITH~
PHEW~!
i cannot wait for the study break~!
Aren't you all excited?!
hahah, i mean i can finally revise my school workk so the whole of exam week all i can do is shake leg and read up a little more just in case i forget. Better go prepare lists of topics i need to MUG on~!
HARDCORE MUGGING SESSION COMING RIGHT UP!
That said.
I'm gonna end this hereee.
Aweee~ i really love assignments where i am able to do what i love and is comfortable with.
SImply like blogging. i reallyyyyyyy do hope there will be moreee pleaseee~

OKE!
IM DONEEEE!

sooooo, back to my basic ranting.
hahaha.
so,someone told me to dedicate a paragraph for her.
tsk~
so hannaaa, being a superrr good girl shall dedicate one fr her.

JAS.
youre a great source of entertainment.
while it lasted.
CHEH NO LA!
hahaha.
i love joking around with you.
because youu so funnnn!
stop poking me because i aint any poking achine yoo gunduu~
hahaha.
oke that said, to avoid getting myself to HUMONGOUS truble.
i shall stop here.
i love you, yuo know that do you?
oke good.

DONE,one paragraph~!
haha.
i loooove my SHATEC darlingsss.
hahah, syaffyyy sarahh iffah jas.
basically everyoneee i know in SHATEC la~
hahaha.
seee told you all i dont hate.
i just dislikeeee.
so for now.
I LOVE THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!
hehehe~

borng without pictures?
what do YOU want from me?
another eye candyy super ulzangggg treat?
haha.
no no.
i know what picture alreadyyyyy~

its gonna be like another nine and ten more days
before i finally manage to MEET THEM!
20 June U-KISS Fanmeet
and
21 June U-KISS Showcaseee~
im gonna beee a happy girl in a few more days!
alsooooo,

IM GONNAAAAA MEEEEET BEAST @ SG TOOO!
hahah, me and my Shahiraaaa will be going for their fan meeting!
im gonna be a happy girl agaaaain~

enough about meeting stars.
i have YET to set a date with my childhood friends, AMANI AND FAZLEEN!
to celebrate our 12 years if friendship! xD
ICE CREAM DATE AS PROMISED PLEEEEEASE?!
anddd my best BABE in th worldddd.
SOFIA CHENG AINI!
where yoo go?!
hahahah~
I MISS YOU PEOPLE!
plusplus, my bestest girlfriend, NADHIRAH and AZLIN!
where are you girls nowwwww?! D: D:
you girls like allost depleting form my memoryyy~ D:
im a miserable girl~! D"

yr insensitivity irks me so baddlyyy~

2010-05-02T23:18:00.005+08:00

its beeeeeen ages since i last posted right?^^
and again, i knew it, no one is gonna read this blog of mine.
well probably because i got really sick of updating it~
haha, and my readers all flee to blogs that are worth th time~
ohhhh whatever.
i just keep this blog as a little diary fr me to rant about my life.
so maybe one day, i got so bored at home or with my life.
i can read back all my past entries to see how fun my life has been all those years~
umm, and now im wondering if i will ever be keeping this blog till im like 40? ^^
hahaha, then this blog will be oldoldold~ ^

so before i start on my usual ranting.
i should probably vent all my frustration and irritation up here.
no offence to whoever it may concern.
im just venting over here.
whatever it is, i have learn to forgive what you've done.
and i have let th matter rest.
so delete whatever happens from yr memory.
im just letting it go here.

you can skip this part if yoo want th usual me back~! ^__^V

your insensitivity irks me. and you claiming whats mine yrs is my concern to.
i know i live to set a trend. but i dont mean to be copied from top to toe.
no im not restricting to what you do to yrself to make you look cool.
even big companies wants to be credited when their product is being used.
is it that hard to at least acknowledge?
i suppose it is then in you case.
i told you about it, and you do change.
thank god.
i really appreciate it.
good for you,dont you feel more proud of yr own ideas as work?
i suppose you do,right?

so i said.
"at least i, unlike you. earn trust and friendship i deserve with th people i meet. while you go ard adding my friends away and acting like as if you have known them since forever. you are seriously pissing me off. and you call yourself MY friend?" and you can say "i dont need a sarcastic friend" siapa makan cili dia terasa pedasnya la~ if its you. shut it. you dont have to go around telling people this friend of yours is being sarcastic to you.and dont you go around saying i 'terasa' because IT WAS ME. obviously. so i again. let it go. you have yr circle of friends and i have mine. dont you go around mingling with mine. because things will get hard for me~ no,seriously speaking.
as for this paragraph. im just re-instating what my sister said in her previous posts of her blog.go check them out if you dont believe. so it may simply concern anyone in this world. go on along with what you want to think about me. because i am who i am to be. KPOP is not a trend where you listen to it becuase everyone is doing it. i love KPOP. at th same time. i still love listening to rock and hip hop tunes at MTV. i dongt listen to them because it make myself feel so super cool and everyone will bow down to me just because i love them. so no. NO music genres are a trend. they are a genre on its own. they arent trash, in not only inferring to KPOP here. this applies to all genres. listening to some music might make you look cool. but at th end of th day, its how these music made you feel. what makes you feel good about yrself is what makes you look cool. so,if youre listening to certain genres because everyone is doing it. then you got some issues going on. I LOVE MUSIC~! and this is by far, th longest i have ever written about music~
"I dont need a two-me. When you leave, you're gone. Unless you found another reason why i should remain in your life. I am afterall always there for everyone."

did i get to harsh?
hope i didnt.
if i do, im sorry~ ^^

so as usual, im gonna give you people

an eye candy treat~!

hes one pretty boy for suree~! ^^

no doubt about it,right?

im not going to regard this post as one of my english assignment oke?

OH~

did i tell you?

my english assignment is th best i have received so faaaar~!

seriouslyyyy!

all we have to do is rant about school fr about 50-100 words.

all in a blog~

ENGLISH IS TH BEST!

well,it has always been for me.

i love anything that concerns languange.

and fooooooooood~! xD

hahaha, i hve school today.

and i have to wake up in about 4 hours time

and im still facing my dear lappyyy smiling ever so happily~

im thirstyyyy~! D:

i miss my sofia cheng aini.

this girl ah, have been missing since forever,you know~

still have yet to contact me.

im so gonna kill her when i meet her~! ^^

no,seriously.

off to bed everyoneee~! ;D

2010-04-19T22:49:00.005+08:00

DID YOO GUYS MISS ME?!
haha,wait, prolly no one even visits this bloggg~
*sighsss.
what a value~
still, who cares right?
hehhhh, guess what?
th picture above right, is taken @ Hong Kong Disneyland ahhh~
yes, that is th first time in my life wearing a shawl~ ^^
loser,i know~!

now for my eye candy treat fr you all~

isnt he superrrrr adorablee?!
hahaha, i want that PJ he is wearing~! ^^

anywayyy,
my school started a week ago~
yes, that fast time flies~ ^^
haha, and fr those of you who are wondering.
im studying at SHATEC pursuing Diploma in Pastry and Baking.
i had a great start for th week~
and my timetable.
its flexible enough, well.
no complaints since this is what i reallyreallyreally wanted right?
haha, basically my classmates are super daebak.
i really find them fun to be with.
because we can just sit there and go crazy talking about anything~
and i hang out with syaf, egg and sarah th most~
its like we are already best friends?
hehhhhh~

andddd.
i got a trademark in class already.
and everyone thinks its funny/cute.
because evey time th teacher call my name, they will always call
"syarifah"
and god knows how much i hate being called by that name.
so basically, i just raise up my hand and say
"Call me Hanna"
haha.
and yes.
that line has become my trademark~
haha, now, whenever th teacher call me Syarifah, i got classmates
that will sing that line~
"call me hannaaaa"
chehh no laa~ ^^

i have classmated that love kpop as much as i do too~
haha, and they are hilarious la i tell you~
i told them imma flood their inbox th moment i get their number.
so when i did, i didnt really flood their inbox~
and today i came to class with them shouting at my face,
"yoo say you want flooood my inbox oneeee?!" ^^
hahaha, whoaaa. they remembered ahhh~

so, i basically have Practical on alternate days, 3 times a week~
and other stuff that im studying is Essential Food Knowledge, Food Science and Hygiene,
Principles Of Pastry and Baking, Host Communication and Fundamental of Hospitality Hosting~ ^^
like alot,but actually not really fr me~
i have practiacl tmr.
and i cnt be late fr class because chef bernard is getting more stict by dayy~
so imma sign out now and crash on my bed~ ^^

sweetdreams peopleeee~ ^^

a treat fr th eyes~!

2010-04-09T01:09:00.005+08:00

my mr eye candy~!
super damn ulzzanggggg,right?! ^^
haha,i knoww~!
completely 대박~!

기섭 needs more air time~

haha, a treat fr your eyes~
i think my twitter updates looks better now right?
been wanting to place th widget here,but too lazy to touch my templates.
ㅋㅋㅋ~

i got work tmr, wait more like today.
so i'm turning in at prolly 0130hrs and waking at 7am?
haha,

ohhh~!
i got my specs readyyyyyy~!
anddd, i bought presents fr my friend's birthday+cards.

haha,will snap a picture of it and post it up here~
ㅋㅋㅋ~
i promise,after th day end oke?

i cnt believe school is gonna start soon~
ahhhh~
it seems like yesterday,i was rotting at home,
chewing on every single food product in my home~

ohhh~
tmrs last day of workkkk~
and i didnt make anythong fr my boss.
ㅋㅋㅋ~
i think shes gonna miss me when im gone~

oke,im turning in now~
you know,i think th typing on my keyboard too noisy.
my sister keeps on tossing ard~
ㅋㅋㅋ, 미안해 귀여운 동상아~

nights~

대박 ~!

2010-04-07T14:14:00.006+08:00

hellooooooooooo~!
haha,its been like ages since i updated~
its not me being lazy.
its just me having nothing to blog about.
no,seriously.
my life is THAT boring.

so.
UPDATESSS~!

as you all know.
i went to UKISS@SG KISS ME gathering on th 27th March.
at Marina Barrage.
haha, i thought it would all be awkward.
and, i arrived late.
anywayy.
th moment i arrived th admins was like "HANNA RIGHT?"
see, i fuss too much about how to get there that they knew me at once.
th gathering was awesomeee~
so it th weather.
i made loadddds of new friends.
well, we all have th same interests anyway, so its easyyy to talk to one another.
and i shall say,i totally love th icebreaker game.
because, yes it totally breaks th ice.
so thats how i met my new friends~
imma flood this pist with pictures later, so wait la~
its like they will paste random people from th Korean Entertainment industry on our back.
and we're supposed to guess who 'we' are by asking ard. they are only suppose to give us clues.
and thank god, i memorised SuJus 13 members dayyyys beforeee.
because, i got SuJus Yesung~
hahaha~
so it all went like that.
we flew kites.
and haha, me being inexperiece, kept on tugging on th thread~
or whatever you call it~
hehhhhh, i like.

we made our own kites.
so we break into groups to make our kites,well to actually drew alphabets that spelled U-KISS.
haha, my group got a K.
so yeapppp~

we took pictures, videos, dance ard to songs, talktalk, eat, drink, laugh alot~
basically its like a reunion only that we hardly knew each other when we got there.
hahaha.

pictures floooooood~!

th fellow Kiss Mes that attended th gathering~
spot meee~ and
see how un-awkward we are.
one big happy familyyy~!

us, me, shahira, ain and far making th kite.
wait, wheres zana and nurul?
see our kite flying high? K~
oh and we flew U-KISS on th skyy~
yeapp all th kitess we madee.
and see "뭐라고" making an entrance?
lets hope their comeback song 뭐라고 will fly highh too~!

yeap, definately krazy Ks.
why?
both of them love Kevin so much.
and me, being th odd one out love KISEOP.
ahhhh 자기, 기 섭 yaaaaa~!
hehhhh~

and when we were waiting fr th train to come.
we snap a few photos,
trying to pose like themmm~!
haha, ohhh and we danced
빙글빙글 near tanjong pagar theree~
hahahahah~!
new friends are loveeeee~! <3

okeee, and on Good Friday,, i went out with my primaru school mates.
fuzzy, sue, eriza and aisyah.
we watched Ju-On White ghost black ghost~!
hehhhhh~!
i miss those girls~
old friend are loveeeee~! <3

and yesterday SHATEC have their Orientation fr DPB and DCS ^^
whichever.
loads of dry stuffs on th first part.
but when we head out to Orchard Central thats when th fun starts with new friends~!
hahah, oh and there was Shari, yes, we kept on bickering at each other~
well, no joke no fun right?
hahaha~
then me shari syafiqah sarah feng yin and two more DCS hosts joined us fr dinner at Shaw~ ^^
haha, Egg got to leave earlyyy~
um then there was samantha and jordon, they left early oh no, i forgot another one.
cnt forget how Jordon Shari and Egg tried to irritate me with "syarifahs"
and Shari's endless bickering that make everyone laughhh~!^^
im looking forward to term starts.

and trust me, its hard to see me around then~
haha, because i have classes up to 8 almost every dayyy~
and i still have classes on saturdayyy~
hahaha, so if i feel like it, i might update hereee and there.
of not, catch me on my twitterrrr~!
toodles peopleee~! ^^

2010-03-20T02:01:00.002+08:00

"you call it clever.
i call it basic common sense"

well, as you all know.
i have strange interest on Headphones.
i mean, i reallyreally love headphones.
and i have a couple at homeee.
still, Audio Tech is my personal favourite.
haha, im not boasting here oke, just tell only,
i have 3 Audio Tech Headphones.
well, its worth every pennyy.
and now, my eye is set fr another.
i saw this on 2AM's newwwww music videooo.seeing Jo Kwon wore it.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
its awesomeee! ^^
i know its fr DJ thingyyy stuff.
but who can get their eyes on this sweet little baby.
i check up th price and its over $200 plusplusplus.
yoooo,it GOLDDDDD~!
and its limited edition.
wahhh, god knows which decade i can finally manage to get my hands on this babyyyy.
ahhhh~
come i showw yooo~!

yeappp, its
AUDIO TECHNICA ATH-PRO700GD~!
and,its my favourite colour!
GOLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
and see how it shinessss!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
*drooooooooools.

get me this headphones,and i will LOVE yooo th rest of my life.
ohh, sad thing is, it is kind of hard to find it at those stores selling IT stuffs like Challenger and
Best Denki.
i want try my luck at Th Headphone Gallery over at Funan IT Mall/
perhaps they have them.
or prollyyy, worst.
make my wayy to Ubi, to get them.
or maybe they cant even be found in Singaporeee~
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

headphone hunting with me anyoneeee? ^^

제발 약속해주세요

2010-03-19T01:15:00.003+08:00

my blogskin is being an arse.
or is it IE is being sooooooooooo god damn sensitive
it works fine on Mozilla Firefox.
should prolly start using Firefox thennn.
yessss,im gonna ditch IE
fr goooood~

ohhh,dont bother this post.
haha, i'll post a proper one tmr~!

i miss my girlfriends~!

나는 나의 여자 친구를 놓친다~!
ahhhhhh~
im going to go 미친.
심각하게~

대박 DAEBAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

2010-03-17T21:23:00.006+08:00

EDIT/

ahhhh~ CHOI MIN HO,th flaming charisma of SHINee that really awed me injured himself recording Lets Go Dream Team just todayyy. ahhh~ th fall really look like it hurts so much. and seeing him struggling in pain like that, ahh really breaks my heart. im not being all emooo here oke? its just that, how can one laught seeing a person get injured that baddd? seriously. though im not fangirling him, still. sympathyyy. ahhh~ i reallyyy hope nothing happens to him~ get well soon min hoooooo~! hwaiting~! ^^

aiya,th picture above is i nothing to do,cannot sleep.
so i just randomly photoshop laaa~
hahahaha~ ^^

th next time min ho get hurt this badddd, i think i might just fly to korea and pay him a visit. chehhhhh,steppp!
i just think that shows like dream team should have a reallyyy TOP,DAEBAK,HIGH-CLASS,however you want to call it, safetyyy equipments and barriers etc. around. i mean,you're talking about th safety of th contestants heree,probably th safety measures should go up up, and just have more precautionary measures,expect th unexpected. well, anything can happen right?history shouldnt be repeating itself.

ahhh~ i hope min ho oppa is doing well~ ^^

/edit

안녕하세요~!

BLOGSKIN CHANGED~!
hahaha, im a happyyy girl nowww!
and ys, this time its U-KISS.
because i have been drooolong over SS501 too muchh that i realise i live with it.
hahah,so maybe a change of air.
i tried to make this one simple.
how is it nowwwww? ^^
(i spend quire sometime to solve th problem with my previous because it only looks good on IE.
so i tried to make it look good on both now, IE and Mozilla.)

and today i got my long awaited U-KISS Only One albummmm!
hahaha, and i got to tell yoo th Admins of UKISS-ME@SG is soooo cuteeeeee!
Cordy and Ant, "너무 귀여워~!"
hahahah, was greeted with warm smiles.
still theres this awkwardness.
haha,prollyyy coming fr th gathering.
and sooo sorry guys,i promised to take a picture of th message book pages of Eli and Soo Hyun right?
haha, i forgot,and i happyhappy hand it in to them.
미안해~ soryyyyy~ ^^

and lately, i have been playing around with my Adobe Photoshop Elements.
haha, YES my VAIO got PSE installed in it.
how cooool is thaaaaat?~
좋다~ 좋다~ 좋다~
i like i like i like~!

and i made lappy wallpapers fr me and sisterrr!
check them out!

this is mineeee! U-KISS!

this is sister's.
haha, she is so obsessed with th almighty from SHINee~
hahaha
nice right?
i knowww! ^^

im prolly going to Disney On Ice this Fridayyy
i know,awesome righttt?!

i got my SHATEC Acceptance Kit yesterday.
ahhh~ heading down to SHATEC on th 30th Mac fr th Matriculation thingyyy.
and th 6th Apr fr th Orientaiton.
ahhh~ excitedddd but at th same time ahhh!
im so scared i wont make friends.
then i'll turn to a loner.
then i shall start humming "Im A Loner" by CN Blue~
"외톨이야~ 외톨이야~ daradiridaraduuuu~"
hahaha, is it me or am i th only one having fun translating with Naver!
tskkkk!

ohhh! did i tell yoo how awesome F.T Island Double Date album is?
haha, i reallyyyy love Hong Ki's voiceeee.
yes,again, i bought th albummm~
its one repackage album,with two album
FT Island which is called One Date
and FT Triple(a sub group) which is called Two Date so,
its DOUBLE DATE.
haha,get it?
come,i showww yooo!

this is th whole albumm thingyyy~

and this is FT Island One datee album,th sub album
in th above onee.

and lastly FT Triple. th Two date. second sub albumm~

im off to sleeeeep!
안녕! ^^

in love much?

2010-03-15T23:46:00.001+08:00

dear my loves,

im gonna chage my blogskin~
so,please do anticipatee

a FRESH NEW LOOKKKKK~!
♥

2010-03-09T03:49:00.001+08:00

IM ON VACATION to
HONG KONG~!

will see yoo guysss sooooooon~!
souvenirs anyoneeee~? ^^

2010-03-05T23:17:00.006+08:00

it really feels
EMPTY~

hannaaaa is hereee again fr another post~
i realise that i want to always blog everyday,but th moment i see YOUTUBE i abandoned the wholeeeee idea.
ahhh~

so today, i went to workkk~
i was really bored because my boss keep on giving me work to do in th office and all she does is get glued on th computer.
well not really, she did her work too but aiya, i just feel like im th stress one.
because i came in at 9:30 so i have to sign out at 5:30~
and i should actually be home by them because i wanna watch MUSIC BANK~! ^^
anyhooo, my boss have a FB acc. and then she ask me somehting about 'Tubing" and i though, what in th worlddd is TUBING?~
hahahah,then i blurblur ask her if it has anything to do with FB.
then she was all "TUBING TUBING~"

W T H is TUBING?~

then it came to me, YOUTUBE~
hahah, it weird she knows FaceBook but is clueless about Youtube,for all i know, people would know Youtube THEN FB.
still, she is so superrr blurrrrrr with FB.

yoo know those email notifications you receive from facebook telling you about new updates.
well she received one that wrote "so and so sent a message to you an facebook" then got th message there.
she another blurblur, so reply via that email~
TSKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~!

end up,i go to work to tutor my boss all about Facebook. tskkkk~

so she left th office early,leaving me with HEAPS of files to be i d k what i should call it.
its more of transferring more of old files to new oness.
tiring,and i have to get th labeling right~!

but since my boss wasnt there i thought its about time i catch up with some korean dramas~
hahaha, been sooooo longgg~ ^^

OH~!
speaking of which,
FLASHFORWARD season 2 is coming backkkk~! ^^
how happpy can i gettt?

back to th point, i was so boreddd eventhough i got th drama as my companion, when yoo got
HEAPS of tasks to do yoo just cant help but to have a break.
so i camwhoreddd~
haha,with my new phoneee~

YES, i got my self SAMSUNG CORBYYYY~!

hahah, yes,the picture aboveeeee thereeeee, is in th officeee
ahh~ my boss wont allow me take picture of th office interior muchh.
she said, i need to keep my job a secret.
whoaaa, its not like as if im helping out in some secret organisationnn~! ^^

anyhoo, KISS ME @ SG has lauched their birthday project~!
this will be my first!
and its fr Soohyun and Eli~
and THANKFULLY,i managed to get it done before my hong kong trip~
get what done?
haha,the pages fr th message book of course~
will take a pic wheneverrr~
but before i sent them out to th admin~! ^^
so now,i just
just need it to be sent out~ ^^
plusplusplus, i think mine isnt so very nice but its okeee fr me~
and thinking if i should go to th gathering~ ^^
ummmm~

3 MORE DAYS TO HONG KONG TRIP~!

ohh,and did i tell yoo my bestie was a saviour?
i was looking fr chords fr this song by CN BLUE,but cnt find on th webb
so he nicenice offer his kindness and help me do it~
SO NOW~
im a happyyy girl because i can play that songggg~!
thnks alot,buddyyyy~!
wahh ske uh si pak din tu kena puji~! ^^

ohhh, on tuesday, i will be leaving fr hong kong~
but my flight is so very th earlyyy~
flying off at 7:55AM~
wahhh,and daddy say must wake up at 3:30AM
so i very smart girl.
i dont want to sleep that night~
haahahah~! ^^
see if my mind will go bonkers~ ^^

im done fr nowww~!

2010-02-24T01:01:00.002+08:00

SPECIAL POST~

hahahahaha
today, SS501's Eternal Center turns 24 according to Korean ageee.
simply, he is now 23~!

so,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JYU JONG~!
김규종 오빠, 생일 축하해요 ~! ♥

SS501,hwaiting~!

하지만 심각하게 ~

2010-02-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

메롱~!

what happen this week eh?
ohhhh~

on wednesday, i was superrr bored at home.
so i decided to have lunch with mum and then head down to JP.
because i just got myself new Converse High Cuts, haha,
suddenly i feel so rich after working~
anywayy, i wanted to get shoelacesss for my dear.
haha, so i was walking around,thinking what else to buy.
window shop and stop by a couple of shops.
OMO~
converse is selling this high cuts that i really waaaant~
but seriously,its costlyyy.
got to work harder.
wait, i still need to set money aside fr my new school term.
uniforms, textbooks etc.
ahhhhh sheeeeesh~
anyway,i was looking for BIGBANG'S albuuum~
and after rummaging through almost all VCD shops in JP,
i finally found it.
guess where?
CD RAMA~
haha,should have looked for it there in th first placeeee.
and i swearrrr i was superr elated when i saw it,
that i kindda shrieked(?)
well,kind of to myself, but i still got those stares from people.
aigoooo~
then i came across JJ Lin's new album.
because i kindda got myself addicted to However Many Hundred Days sung by him~
any hooo, i was short of cash,and dont want to use my cardd because i withdrawn money fr th week alrd, so i got myself to a dilemma.

haha, seriously, it was like a thought process there and then.
so i got myselfff BIGBANG's album because JJ Lin album can be found anywhere
and i've been having sleepless nights thinking about th album.

i head of to get myself headbands then.
head homeeee.
so i was a happy girl~

fridayy,mum was on MC.
so she brought me to SHATEC to settle my first term fees
and sign th contract~
after that, we went jalanjalaaaan again.
haha,i was on off on that dayyy.
got myself socks,to where with my new converseeee~
then mum headed to Charles and Keith to get new shoes.
i was looking ard and found a superrrrr neat purse.
because i need a new one,seriously.
i got one.
haha, its purpleeee and it has got blingblings~
i likeeee.
head of to Parklane mall after that for our facial appointment.
gahhh~ its been sooo loooong~!
dinner at Pastamania,fr th sake of completing th card thingyyy~

then on fridayy itself, my NEW WHITE AUDIO TECH headphones brokeeedownnn.
i was devastatedddd.
haha,i loove headphones,i dont know whyy.
so on saturday, after dinner at JP, i went to bought new ones.
this time its audio tech red one.
sheeeesh~
and got my ipodddd bby new caseee~
hahaha.

i sound spoilt,but trust me,im spending my own moneyyy fr myself.
and yes, i do save up~

and yesterday,daddy bought me and sis Levis.
im contented now.

so much for what happens this week~
ohh,i 've been very active in forums nowadays.

yes, dear me has started to join forums to seize boredom and make new friends of same interests.
some forums im active on

SG TRIPLE S
speaking of which, my MEMBERSHIP PACK from them arrived. th tee and capp was niceee. im waiting fr th nametags or card or whatever. still worth paying for and worth joining. its sad SS501 are not having their PERSONA @ SG this year. i realllllllyyyy hope they will comeeee anytimeeee. dengan semangat nya, i put aside part of my pay to pay fr concert tickets to any Asian Artist coming to singapore~ SS501 as a priorityyy~ohhh, their PERSONA at Bangkok was awesomeee~ watch some Fancams, they really majuu alrd uh. v. near perfect uh. and they are having th ENCORE PERSONA SEOUL soooon~ if onlyy i got moolahh,i'll be there alrd uhh~

U-KISS, KISSME.SG
i kind of heard they are coming to Singapore. wahhhh~ and i think this group have strong bonds with fans~ i dont know why,but every time i come to that forum,theres always something that makes me like "ahhh,they know we exist" because they wear/use stuffs we gave them and give singapore fans their messages,like really fr us~ hahah,im honoured. ahhh~~!

C.N.BLUE SG
th fanclub just started so,its kind of having a nice start, neat. i should say.looking forward to projects and gatheringsss then. well, they are still new, but who cares?and they might be coming to SG~ but its all not confirm,so lets not put my hopes up highhh~

did yoooo knowwww?
im going to HONG KONG on my next holidayyyy~!
marchhhhhh 9th i thinkkkk~
ahhh~ cnt waitttt~

this is sidetrack.
i just feel like venting this out.
because i cannot stand it keeping any longer.
i mean,th thought of it just pissed me off.
i know this is OLD storyyy but.
aiyaaa~ yoo know la that feeling,you cant let go unless to let it out.

PLEASE NOTE: there IS a difference in having a crush on someone and not wanting to get myself in a relationship oke? its completely different~
PLEASE TAKE NOTE: i SAID i DONT want to get myself involve in relationships at th moment and not i DONT want to like any guys at th moment. i am sure i said that because i said that i dozen times to people,fr god's sakeee~
PLEASE KINDLY TAKE NOTE: i have make things clear with you when we first talk that, we are MERE friends. friends i make at th moment are just as platonic friends relationship. if you want any special treatment or more than just friends,maybe you should just give it up. im looking fr FRIENDSHIP here and not RELATIONSHIP.
PLEASE DO KINDLY TAKE NOTE: yes,i have male best friends. so what? it isnt wrong right? NOTHING in th law of Singapore disallow that. if you want to be jealous,whats th point? we are just friends. and th only reason why i talk to them and treat them nice, because they treat me nice and they deserve it plus,they are worthy enough fr me to call bestfriends. i know them fr quite a long time,so isnt it weird to suddenly NOT talk to them. THINK.
PLEASE ALSO DO KINDLY TAKE NOTE: nobody.nobody including you except fr my parents have authority over me and my freedom. even my parents allow me great share of freedom. so you are in NO position to tell me off over something i believe in and over something im NOT at all at fault at. so i would GREATLY appreciate it if you would stop calling me a liar. because i am not. its you who got th facts WRONG. and im not a liar,mind you. my parent raised me well so i tell th truth.
so,think before you act. because you might regret,i've given you a chance to get to know me. and you expect me to come searching fr you first? i have things to be done. plus, i entertain those who are worthy of my attention. well,thats everyone. but you just blew it off. too baddd~ again,think before you react,because you really hurt me bad. a n w, thnks alot fr telling me off because i dont really deserve it.

2010-02-16T18:11:00.008+08:00

nurulhannaaaaa is backkkkkkk~! ^^

i know its been a while since i last update this blog.
th last time was a month ago perhaps?
haha, not that many stop by my blog.
so,honestly i dont really care that much.
but im back now.
literally back.
both ways.
back to blogging
though i might not be updating every single seconds oof my life.
but i will update ocassionally~
and im back to my own happy self now.

im stronger now.
no,seriously.
headstrong.
but still sad dramas makes me cry.

i stop telling stories becaue.
i faced a major set back in my life.
it felt like as if i hit rock bottom in life.
plus th pressure i received from people around me.
its really depressing.

that time, i really see my self going nowhere in life.
like as if all th opportunities th world offer me
just shut itself close.
and i dont even get a chance to actually show my self.
my true potential.

people just look down on me like as if
i cannot make it happen in life.
but i know some how, i will make it big.
prove them wrong.
life will lead me somewhere.
im just sure that will happen.

i totally shut myself from th outside world.
like as if every single soul on earth just found out that i failed.
i locked myself out fr almost a week after that.
i didnt blog, didnt facebooked.
all because i was jealous of my friends,of people who made it somewhere.
at least.
yea, i know im kindda being a bitch dealing with these situations.
seriously, try putting yrself in my shoes.
i didnt even go out, because im really afraid og meeting
someone i know,and them asking me about it.
so, i totally cut off all th ties i had with my life.
my eyes had never been that painful for such a long time.
th whole week,i did nothing but mourn over it.
i chuck everything about it aside.

it feels like depression.

it felt like a bad dream.
like a nightmare,that i will somehow wake up from.
but it isnt.

those times, my sister was th one next to me.
encouraging me, pulling me up.
making me believe in my dreams back again.

and at that point of time.
i found how amazing my religion was.
not that i had turn pious or anything.
but only now, i realised what people meant by,
at times when they fail, that is when they found god.
well somehting like that.
so i found him.
i seek to him.

it really felt like as if he hears every single word i said.
and that he is consoling me somehow.
you know, when you feel it.
its just so soothing.
like he heard my prayers,
he gave me strength.
he gave me courage to just stand up and face it.

because somehow,
i got to face th truth somehow.

th feeling of rejoicing after you fall.
standing back up.
facing th world.

it felt good.
really good.

im stronger now.

thennn came a really good news.
when i got back up.
>_< I GOT INTO SHATEC~!
th school of my dreams.
god must have heard my prayers.
hahahaha.

it was unbelievable news fr me.
a gift from god.
or like sofiaaa said,
'a blessing in disguise'

so, i was preparing to go Malaysia Terengganu.
four days ago,when my dad came home,and told me i got a letter from SHATEC.
myt heart beats super fast.
and i was super anxious that i tore th entire envelope.
haha,seriously.

th first few line caught my eye.

"Dear Ms. Syarifah Azrinatul Nurulhanna,
We are pleased to offer you a placement in Diploma in Pastry and Baking programme commencing on 12 April 2010."

i was elated.
no no.
better than elated.
better than being happy becaue th guy of my dreams proposed to be.
not that i felt like that before.
but, you get what i mean right?!

hahaha, so im at SHATEC.
pursuing a one and a half year of studies to become a Pastry Chef.
so if all goes well, my course will end 03 October 2011.
hahahahaha~! i finish school faster than my friendssss~!
really looking forward to that.
hahahha, lets just push th idea of afraid of beong a loner aside okee? ^^

whats new?

ohhh,
i got myself albums~!

2PM, 01:59 PM
SHINee, Year Of Us
SS501, Rebirth Special Collection
G-Dragon, Heartbreaker
BIG BANG, Big Show 2009

hahaha, im a happy girl.
minus th fact that i splurge on my two month payyyy~

hahaha, it was worth it.
puls i got myself an

iPOD NANO 5th GENERATION
8GB ,purpleeeeee~!

with second payyyy~
haha, but im a happy girl.

ohhh, i cut my hair short.
with many layers.
told th hairdresser to add volume to my hair,and make it short.
whoaaaaaa
th outcome was
^0^

but now its long, so its getting a bit messy for me.
hahha, i still like my new hair~
long gone were th days i have longlonglong hair
that people really love.
but im gonna keep this one long

i miss my girlfriends so much.
and i hope th REUNION plus Azlin's birthday will happen
haha im really looking forward to 24thFeb laterrr~

ohhh,and i changed my blog songggggg~!
G-DRAGON 파이팅~!
im done hereeee peopleeee~!

those JITTERS.

2010-01-10T22:53:00.002+08:00

you know th feeling like th hairs on your neck standddd.
when you think about something.
thats exactly what im feeling roght now.
thinking about results.

tsk, talking about results.
all th best fr you people taking it. ;D

GEEEZ,
i dont know what to expect tmr.
im so nervous i can literally breakdown.
seriously.

let just hope for th best.
PERIOD.

and talking about which.
th other day went out with my timah janda.
finally got my shades.
haha, TWO some more.
bought new shoes too.
and new falsies. ;D
haha, really shop.

and considering getting myself and iPod when i finally got my second pay.
ohhh~
moolah,fasterfaster comeee. ;D

baking tarts tmr.
for my class. ^__^
so my mates are so lucky that they get freshly baked tarts. ^^
hahaha

oke, LOVE YOU ALL.
and i dont know what wrong with blogger now.
cant really see my blog post. D:

FIRST fr 2010

2010-01-06T00:57:00.002+08:00

i know,i know this post will be kindda lateeee but who cares.

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR PEOPLE~!

my 2009 was superrrr awesome, eventhough in th beginning
i had a hard time dealing with heartbreak and all.
but im all better now.
and this is all thks to people who really really made it happen.
those who support me and just revolve ard my world.
diesnt necessary talk to me but at least smile and stuff like that.
so thnks so much you people who really made my 2009 a BLAST~!
saranghaeee~! ^^

im lazyy to list down names because you people should know who you areee.

so,whos up to make my 2010 betterrr? ^^

I. REALLY. DONT. WANT. TO. TALK. ABOUT. MAJORS.
AND RESULTS. RIGHT NOW.

periodddd~

so i was on a relaxing Sabah,Kota Kinabaluu trip fr 6 days~
26 Dec to 31 Dec~ ;D

it was superrrr funnnnn~
i really went shoppingggg, and climbed Mount Kinabalu fr abou 2 kilometres from th i d k where. ;D
SUPER COLD UP THERE, i swear.
haha, pity mum and dad, they hardly have any more energy left to catch up with me and sister, end up went fr 2km when initially plan fr 4km. ;D
*aigooooo ^0^

and tmr, like finally im gonna meet my timah jandaaaa.
off to suntec to get new shades that i saw th other dayyy~
haha, broke mine in Sabaaaah, sad,i know.
and YES its th superrrr chio black one~ >__<
so whateverrrrr.

went to work today.
kindda miss th office after being away for like i d k.
3 working days(?) ~~
aigooo~

th moment i enter,
i saw like 5 stacks of files.
like a whole big stackkk on th table, waiting to be unfiled,archived and shredddd.
so i didddd~~
haha, then update then and suchhh. ;D
th usual, still my table looks so messy because many things needed to be updated,counter-check and all.
but today i d k fr some reason i manage to do all those unfiling archiving and shredding fast.
haha, NO i did not take th whole dayyy~
while is kindda ridiculous.
hahah,but it happen before,when i was still new.

geeeez~

end up,i have to walk ard office checking at th doors and th labels and match them with th keys then arrange them accordingly.
hahaha, so with pen and foolscap.
i took a stroll ard th office.
hahaha, mumble numbers and letters to myselffff. ;D

after work, went over to mums office,see her do her work.
hmm, apart from my boss who frequently talk to herself.
my MUM does it TOO~~
seriouslyyyyy~
maybe all admin people does that huh?
aigooo,aigooo,aigoo~

i bake fruit tarts yesterday night, now since its past midnight. ;D
looks yummyyyyy, will try it tmr.
haha,still need to chill.
im planning to bake strawberry shortcakee and strawberry non-bake cheese cake.
so,jyeaaa.
tell you guys on th outcome,when ever i feel like it.
hahaha.

LOVE YOO PEOPLE~!

2009-12-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

seriously, i have no idea what th fk is wrong with blogger~!

i cnt seem to upload pictures.

fineeee,i'll use photobucket~! >_<

i had work todayy, and there was tonnnnnns to be doneee.

in th end,i knock off from work at ard 6:30, which is th latest i have went homee.

haha,usually i rushed off at 5.

hahaha.

so most of th time at work today,i was all alone in th office.

(since theres only two person in th office, only me and my boss)

yes,gerek i know.

my boss veryy cuteee,seriously.

went i reach th office,i shred after archiving documents.

apparently,i was playing hide and seek with a cockroach.

there was one that suddenly appear and rushed to one of th biggg black garbage bags full of th shreded paper.

i instantly moved my shredder machine (yes,it has wheels,i cant possibly lift it up, it small though) to another sideee.

then when it came near to th sofaa,instanly i moved th machine somewhere further.

for all i know,almost th whole office was littered with small pieces of paper.

so maybe th cockroach knows im scared of it, or th cockroach is scared of me,it ran below one of th garabage baggg.

so i took that opprtunity to squishhhhhhhh th cockroach to its deathhh, while screaming.

no,i didnt squish it with my hand nor foot.

because th garbage bag was full of th shreded pieces,i fill it up more,and squish it.

thereafter dragg th bag all th way out to th biggg dust binnnn~! ^^

HANNA WIN! ^^

why am i babbling about cockroachh here a n w?

so after that more archiving work and updating.

two thousand three hundred files updateddd~! ^^

tomorrow, im suppose to work, but my boss is on urgent leave.

so thennn, i dont have to go to work.

th good thing about having only two people in th office.

haha, and since friday is Christmas, i dont have to work.

and since next weeeeek im off for a relaxing holidayyy,

im free from work, so im starting work after new year! ^^

hahaha, and i got my first pay check like three weeks agoooo~!

doing updating workk, hmmm.

i realised, manymanymany people love to change phone number like fun fair.

tak tsk.

its like within 4 yers,they change another number,and its a little troublesome to keep on updating.

tsk tsk.

so people, please be kind,because changing phone number will cause alot of inconvinence to people who have to constantly update yr personal profile.

aigoooooo~! >_<

i've beeeen shopping alottt,lately.

i got loads of new stuffs.

like charles and keith handbag, new headphones,new lappyyy.

haha, i feel so spoilt. ^^

i miss sofiaaaa aini~! ^^

ohhh and sherra and kendraaa~! ^^

and timah and midah and markonah~! ^^

tsk, wednesday i have a date with timah sayaaaang~!

cnt wait~~ ^^

might be catching a concert or something

and on thursday, maybe,im accompanying my sister to watch Alvin and th chipmunks 2.

hahaha.

and t m r, i have NOTHING to dooo, so i might be bored, so someone should really ask me out.

go watch movie or lepak and guitaring or something.

ohhh,

AVATAR anyone?!

i've been asking people ard to go watch AVATAR with me.

but many says its nonsense.

how can it be?

hahahaha.

its not that im a big fan of avatar.

but th idea of th story is kindda attracts me.

so again,

AVATAR ANYONE?!

did i tell you my boss is cute?
seriously, she likes to talk to herself.
maybe people whooo work in th office really like to talk to themselves.
hahaha~!

so i was listening to music from th radio, with my headphones.
and you know how at times when you put on headphones,and you just have th volume veryy low, you still cnt really hear people.
jyeaaaaa, a n w.
she was mumbling to herself,and i thought that she was asking for me,so i took out my headphones and say "HUHH?"
then she replied, "nothing, i was talking to myself"
haha, cute right?
then i was like, "ohhh,ohh-kehhhh"
then she keeps on doing it again and again.
hahahaha~! ^^

then there was a time when she even asked me to help her type an sms. ^^
and she constantly ask me to drink loads and loads of waterrrr.
because i have tp walk back and forth from th main office to th filing room.
i swear at first i find it sooo farrr, but eventually,it seems like it getting nearer.
like walikng on a ruunwayy. ;D
hahahahha~! ^^

5 more days to SABAH, KOTA KINABALUUU~!

but im sickkkkk.
so im reallyreallyreallyreally worried that i might not be able to get well before that.
oh godddd,please~!

jyeaaaaa, im taking flight there~!
then right, when we reach th airport, got people hold up our names uhhh.
then got rideee to th hotel~!
hahahaha, so so special~~ ^^

loveeee you peopleee~! ^^

maybe two is better than one?

2009-12-18T22:46:00.003+08:00

taaaa daaaa~!
new blog skin is uppp!
after hours and hours spent on th computer.
im such a happyhappyhappy girl right now because finally i can blog all over again!
god knows how much i miss ranting shits here. ;D
hahahaha!^^

yes,th picture looks a little messy but im trying to work on another one. ;D
yes its th holidays and i got nothing better to do.

i dont know if its me or blogger thats showing attitude,but i cant seem to upload my picture here.
*sighsssss~!

so,many things happen when i am aways,
say,
Red Camp, Grad Night, Sherra's birthday party.
manymanymany more.
im simply lazy to mention.

haha, so holidays are fineee.
because basically i work on tuesdays and fridays.
then im all free on th rest,weekends are spent outside all th time.
well almost all th time,that is.
th rest, i just get lazy at home,renting VCDs going out,cooking. ;D
and get my self addicted to Korean dramas, especially Reversal Of Fate.
hahaha, gimme PARK JI WOO~! ^^

oke,i love you people.
and i love SS501 until th day i die.

my sofyy is off to indo and i miss her alotalotalot la, its been so looong since we last meet and talk.
geeez~ i miss her seriously.
aigoooo, fasterfaster come back laaa~~~

sweetdreams people~! ^^

2009-12-15T19:29:00.003+08:00

hellooooo people, im finally back to th internet worldddd~!
im not going to update much now, maybe later.
will be making a new skin soon since its nearing a new year.

wait for it,lovelies~! ^^

2009-10-13T21:42:00.003+08:00

selamat malam anak anak semuaaa! ;D
hahah, aku sekarang dipanggil joyah sport.
kampung nya pasal.
jadi semua member ada nama kampung tersendiri.
hahha, tau? tak tau? buat macam faham aja eh?

cik joyahh ni lagi stresssssssss amat pasal O levels da nak dekat.
leceh pulak pikir pikir keras keras hanya untuk gi poltyechnic.
hari-hari belajar naik penat dan rimas.
haha, tapi tak pa, kena berkorban untuk masa depan yang cerah,kan?
betulbetulbetul.
wahh,kalautidak tersangkut, jual karipap tangoh jalan macam si Midah Karipap tu.
sara hidup denga karipap.
tappi joyah tak mau gitu.
joyah nak dapat Diploma in Culinary and Catering Management itu,pat Temasek Poly tuuu.
jauh pun jauh la,limitlimit naik keretapi pun sampai, sambil tu bole samung tidur,since jauh nak perjalanan. janji sampaai,nak menimba ilmu.
doa kan Cik Joyah Sport ye?
sayaaaaaaaaaaang korang. ;D

dengan itu, Cik Joyah nak update seperkara lagi.
yang Cik Joyah da pi gunting rambut,jadi pendek.
jadi tak mau mimpi nak tengok Jerangkung Cik Joyah Tergantung pat siling korang ye.
terus mengharap la ye? ;D

dengan lagi satu update.
memandangkan O level ni makin dekat, Cik Joyah pun da naik menggelabah.
jadi,nak mintak paiseh dulu sebelum apa apa.
mana tau sejenak lepas O level Cik Joyah da tak ada lagi kan,pasal otak da maca Tin Kosong Nyaring Bunyinyaaaa. ;D
haha, Cik Joyah Ni busy sebenarnya, nak prepare Os kata kan! (:
jadi memandangkan keaddan tak mengiizinkan Cik Joyah update blog setiap hari, cik joyah akan cuba TWEET tiap hari. jadi datang blog tak baca post, tapi baca TWEETs Cik Joyah yeee. ;D
pasal itu lagi senang. (:
so , sekarang Cik joyah da nak mintak diri dulu la eh.
hahha
sayaaang korang and will be back after MAJORS! (:

CURRENTLY ON HIATUS!
thnks to MAJORS!

love you alllll, keep on reading.
keeeep on tagging. ;D

baking-to-th-spree

2009-09-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

i can no longer figure out another reason to love you
because when i think again, you have never even exist in my heart.
dont you think you are pushing this a bit too far.
and dont you realise you are suffocating me and that not a single bit of you is actually stuck deep within my heart.
indeed i care fr you and that all those promises i made, i meant it.
every single one.
but have you clung on me enough?
because im getting sick and tireddd already.
i know yr intention is fr us to stick close together as friends, but not like this.
dont you think by now, you should take a step back from my life.
because i, like you an other human beings in this world need freedom.
so,i need freedom.
and not having you so damn involve in my already hectic life.
so mister, stop telling me stuff i dont want to know, and geting irritated with me because i told you stuff you didnt want to know. because you started it first.
go figure.

torture me more, and you shall go to hell.

pictures of me wont come out on every post because.
simply, both of my computers broke down.
seriously.
can yoo imagine how pissed as ass shit fck i was?
but me,being a smart girl, (please, theres a difference between smart and clever oke?)
used mums laptop to get things almost back to normal.
and finally, th wireless thingy that have been luring around th air of my house is put to very good use. ;D

last saturday, i cleaaaaan my room,spick and span. ;D
with th help of dad,mum and myself.
sister only help with th vacuuming.
and biy, i room sure have loads and loads and loads of rubbish.
prove you, you know the rag and bone men also known as karang guni is being quite stingy right?
that when you sold a room full of newspapers you get like 5 bucks? 10 bucks?
so jyeaaa, my rubbish like 80% is sold to th karang guni man fr 10 bucks and sumpah swear, its th stingy one. ;D
rearranged th furnitures in my room, and i totally looooooooooove how my room look like now. ;D
so, i was really satisfied.
it means that, our hard work paid off.
thus, as far as possible, i want to keep my room clean.
and yes, i made siser try her best to be neat.
otherwise, i will just clean her rubbish(:
because im a very good sister.
so since my PC is now dead and gone, i replaced them with mums lappy at th computer table, and boy, it looks soooo damn neat like o m g.
because th flat monitor gone, keyboard gone,mouse gone. ;D
hahaha, and since mum lappy can bring any where in any parts of th house, most of th time that table is empty, thus making it my study table.
*griiiiiiiiins widely

prelims are so over.
imma relax fr a while before starting serious mugging.
and i really men serious.
MUST GET SHATEC! ;D
i know i should be choosing polytechnics,
but i swore to mum, i will live my dream.
so,Temasek will be my choice.
yeap, no more tourism and resort management.
threw that dream sooooo faaaaar awaaaaaaaaay alrd.
because i know, that is too demanding for me.
might as well go fr something i really enjoys doing. ;D
things should go smoothly if i work hard from now.
CHEF CHEF CHEF CHEP orrrrr i BAKE BAKE BAKE BAKE until th day i die. ;D
best hidup gituuuu.

i miss my dearest girlfriend,
sofiaa aini, we see each other in school
but seldom talk random shit to each other.
geee,thnks prelims.
so yea,i miss her like fck.
pleasepleaseplease,come back to me.
i miss my sofia aini. D:
i baddly want to talk to her like how we did every single moment.
i miss my 'Handsome'.
inside joke,go figure. (:

and my dearest girlfriend got me addicted to Fated To Love You.
yessssssssssss.
i still got th addiction of taiwan drama.
because its very ncenicenice.
oke,talking about it, i can never stop. ;D
i just started Fated to Love You, so cnt really say much.
and im so done with those 'act-cute' mintak kena tampar Taiwan Dramas.
namely, Why Why Love and Devil Beside You.
still,they are nice dramas, apart from the mintak kena tampar perangais. (:
so maybe, after Fated To Love You, i shall watch it started with a kiss, they kiss again and then boys over flowers.
nahhh, Boys over flowers comes first.
moreover, i saw one of their episodes,it v th nice.
*drooooooooooooooooooool.
oke thats korean drama.
stillm foreign kan?
tak haraaaam pun. ;D

started my baking spreeeeee today.
bake a successful first batch Chocolate Almond cookies.

second batch will be
th Merigue also known to many as Macaroon.
haha, i think i made this best, aside from my brownies. (:

third batch will be,
Cherry Dot Cookies.
this is a new recipe, gonna modify it a little i guess.
hahaha, you know i dont really trust following recipes step by step. ;D
they always turns fine to me.
ofund it at th back of cornflakes box.
yessss,i love collecting recipes and try them.

haha, i got a whole library full of cookbooks,but i never ge th chnce to really try them out.
and my aunt from australia,again, is getting me a few more coookbooks from there. im a happy and contented girl now.

so i shall be going.

love yoooo people. ;D

"leave now but dont come back with regrets in yr eyes.
because i cant take another sympathy.
sick of being too nice,but cant shake it off"

2009-09-10T10:26:00.004+08:00

God is fair aint he?
making life unfair
so we would work super hard
to achieve whatever we want.
true?
someone prove me wrong.

OPS!
hanna nak mintak paisehh.

sorry fr the lack of updates.
whats there to update about?
haha.
i've been all around
superrr preoccupied even during th holidays.
and yes, the break.
forget about it,besides a getaway,
i really really really need a day at the beach.
seriously.
and i dont care it th beach is dirty, not peaceful,
screams and cried of children so loud, they can burst my ear drums.
balls flying up in th sky and even if they land on my head and i were to die or faint.
will funny tactics of people doing silly notorious things in th water
seeing kayaks everywhere and even if the bow of th kayak hit my head so hard that
my bones fall to pieces.
I-DONT-CARE.
because all i need right now is a little funnn.
like just shove awayyy all these stress fr just one day
and just have funnn.
its not that im getting boring and laid back these few days of holidays.
but i keep thinking and hyperventilating when i think of MAJORS. D:
so how?

th POA day camp i attended yesterday was actually,
cant believe im saying this but.
its FUN. :D
i really had fun and at th same time i gain knowledge.
so now, Accruals and Prepayments, get lost!
i know how to deal with you now.
now,go die.
geeez, i love poa.
dont know why,
though i dont score top top top,
but i enjoy doing T-accounts calculating and all.
makes my self look so neat.
oke, lepas ni,confirm kena spot nya. ;D

and today,sadly, i cnt make it.
because i have to look and hunt fr kueh raya recipes that i throw all ard my house and room
right after th Baking Spree of last year's rayaaa.
and at th same time cook fr bukaaa later.

MENU FR TH DAY
PASTA WITH MUSHROOM CARBONARA CREAM SAUCE.
feel it dancing on yr tongue.

oke, part feeling it dancing itu tak perlu.
therefore, i need a trip to th Supermarket to get my stuffs before i will be ruling th kitchen later.
i cant wait!
desperate nak masak katerkan,kan?

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh!
and i have latest digs and addiction. ;D
creating Twitter soon,not because its th IN-thing.
but,i think its fuuuun, aint it?
haha, nak try uhhhh.
because yesterday,
syiqs,nisa,sue,fat'hil and me were talking about th social networks.
abe nak kait kait kan dengan these particular group of people.
and saying where should we go next if Facebook is th next victim of these particular group of people. ;D
friendster? tagged? facebook? twitter? myspace?
everywhere la.
silapsilap,YouTube pun diserang.
overall, yesterday was nice.

♥

i want to take Taylor Lautner, Kingone, Mike He, Figaro Zeng and squeeeeeze them all inside my pocket.
and on th other pocket, i will squeeze The White Tie Affair.

♥

heard of The White Tie Affair yet?
haha, go listen to their music.
they're nice.
i personally love Scene Change. ;D
hahaha, oh, and th song ringing in this blog,yeaaaa.
its by them. ;D
so.
*SCREAMS!

been watching Taiwan Dramas alot these days.
da jadi macam addiction. ;D
haha, they are hilarious but at th same time when it comes to th climax or something
you could just cryyy.
and i love it more because it doesnt have SO MANYYYY episodes like Animes or some other nice Indonesian Dramas.
oke, i used to watch alot of chinese shows when i was in primary school.
and totally stop when i got to secondary.
started drooling over korean dramas fr a while, then stop again all th way until now.
thats been like 3 years plus?
haha. ;D
they are nice.
and though i know.
taiwan/chinese/korean dramas is not equal to syarifah azrinatul nurulhanna.
but still.
i enjoys drooooooling of these dramas. (:
and geeez.
sofiaaa just told me another.
Fated to Love you. ;D
didnt really watch properly.
so,jyeaaaa.
im gonna watch,sooon. ;D

andddddddd.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
FAZLEEEEEEEEEEEN,sayaaaang!
aku love kau sampai mati,aku sumpah swear.

rinduuuuu laaaaaaaaa. D:
♥

so,id be gone then.
i dont know when im gonna update.
so catch me when you can. ;D
loves.

andrew

2009-08-27T21:12:00.004+08:00

Secret Crush:
ANDREW
♥
*winks

aint blogging much here because most of th time i will be blogging at

whenhanna-say@bs.com

this is because i can just blog it from my phone directly.
jyeaa, its just a new blog thingy i created fr myself. ;D
dont go yet, its private.

apart from my PRELIMS.
life is fck great. ;D
i sumpah swear.
who knows, even having crushes makes yr heart skip a beat and you'd jump fr joy.
even misery doesnt make sense then. (:
ahhhhhh~

OH!
and Panic! at the Disco, have got a new videooo.
New Perspective
lazy to post it up here.
go search it.

wont be updating more often,but i will try to drop by every now and then.
PRELIMS is MAJOOOOOOR! (:

you were so close to me
that i can feel you breathing
that i can just touch your face
that i can just hold your hand
that i can just get lost in your eyes
that i can tip toe and just kiss you.
i can never miss that adrenaline rush you gave me.
its been a while since my heart beats fast.

"i let my days go stale,
and out my heart to sleep"
-Five person you meet in Heaven by Mitchie Albom.

life is fcuking awesome that i cant just stop screaming it out loud.

ahhhh~
ANDREW♥

2009-08-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

first.
SELAMAT BERPUASA
semua umat islam. :D
"buat jahat berpada-pada, ada batasnya."

second.
i know its late but.
CONGRATULATIONS
to SOFIA AINI, my babe.
because she got an effing B3 for her Malay O levels.
so freaking proud of her.
see, having me as a bestfriend, it GREAT influence, see, yr malay got better.
chehhhhhhh!
and
SHERRA, my mummm. cehhhh no la. my girlfriend
because she got an A1. ;D

i love my girlfriends. <3

days ago, a friend of mine knock some senses to me.
and now, it all seems clear to me.
that i've been trying so damn hard to remain in my past that i forgo
whatever is happening to me now.
i want thnk this friend of mine for the words and for knocking some senses in to me.

and last thursday evening, it was nice.
just you,you and me.
and you, the words, "if i were you,i'd throw it away"
really set me thinking.
maybe i should, tear it apart and burn it.
but its the only piece of memory, it would be hard.
but i'll do it.
soon.

do you people believe in dreams that come true?
whenever i feel so damn low, i would dream of this stranger.
and its always th same stranger.
ALWAYS.
and yesterday, i heard his voice.
not saw him like i always do.
it all seems so real.
when i woke up in a daze.
i thought it was all reality.
and now im confuse between my dream and reality.

everything felt so right with you.
everything went by smoothly with you.
everything was perfect with you.
i love the aura we gave out.
i love you smile.
i love the way you shift your body closer.
and most of all, i love you.

*snapsnap!

it was all a dream.
i was indded, i love with the stranger in my dream.
and i want to make it happen.

2009-08-13T23:20:00.007+08:00

firstly, meet my wonderfuuuuuul class, 4D. love them till death, swear sumpah never bedek!♥

andddd, this is Mr. Yeong, our class mentor(II) because Ms Suhaily our class mentor(I) left us to pursue her studies. D:

and these are the best best best gerek gerek gerek rock rock rock pictures of 4D's trippp to Southern Ridges, we took like thousands of pictures so, cnt really post them all here kaaaan?
a n w, if you're curious visit
♥Syiqs' Multiply
or maybe,
♥Sue's Multiply
click it away, and then you get what i mean by thousands of photos! :D
but here i some i grabbed.

haha, mukerrr EPIC! ;D tak yah deny,hanna!

yang ini, nak step wondergirls, nobody.

and this is my scandal fr th day. ;D

i really seriously love these girls! ;D

and who doesnt know my bestest part time lover, full-time best friend? ;D haha, and i love her even though she screamed at my ears everyday! xD

and this girl, Syiqs i solemnly swear that she have s nice voice and i love her music.
Check out her myspace here!
wahhh, promote nampak.
hahaha. xD
awesome music,i tell you!
plus, she made one of my valentines' day a historical one.
oh,not to forget the rest who is actually part of th 2009 Valentine's day. haha. xD

um, somehow, i got myself somehow sick again.
my throat is killing me and i have body aches.
nahhh, it aint swine fluuu. ;D
because if it is, i wouldnt be coming to school being a good student.
*grins widely and proudly

ohh!
it midnight now! ;D

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN SOFIA AINI! :D

♥

aku love kau sampai mati, sumpah swear tak bedek!

any way. i only stayed up to blog just to wait to midnigh, and wish my part time lover full time best friend happy birthday. and guess what, im like one second late la siol ;D
haha, not badddd,should do this often la. ;D

i hope her birthday will be a blast becauseee, mine wont be such a blast bombing birthday,pasal O level mathematics paper two. so im praying lady luck, lady grace whoever and maybe even God will be right beside me praying for me to Ace th paper. ;D
and maybe she can celebrate for me on behalf of me and my birthday.
"pretty please?"
haha.

so im off to bedd right now. ;D
goodnight! ;D

im in love with the stranger in my dreams. <3
god,please make it happen.

BEST UNIT CADET,ftw!

2009-08-04T19:59:00.003+08:00

i still scream for your name every night in my sleep
and my arms will stretched out for you.
dreaming of you is like
my sweetest nightmare.

SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA is BEST UNIT CADET, female la siooooooooooooooooooool!
hanna ftw uh! ;D

and the first word that came out from my mouth when they announced it was.
"siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal!"
hahaha!
kekek uhhh.
me?
best unit cadet?
are you kidding me or whaaaaaaaaaat? ;D

i got this plaque.
and a badge.
im going to take a picture of these babies.
because i cant help but gawk at them every single moment i have a chance to. ;D
its unbelievable.
me?
from a no nothing no confident know answer just keep quiet girl to best unit cadet to can train one-on-ones without losing my temper and lead?
haha,and all those i thought it was impossible when i was a cadet. ;D

wahh,nak step impossible is nothing uh pat sini! xD

schedule has been tight these few days.
i can hardly have time to breathe!
and i have a lot to catch up on because i was on MC for four days last weeeek.
wasted wasted! D:

hidup macam hectic gila nak mampos.
tapi tak mamposmampos lagi.
entah bilerrr la nak stop ini benda semuaaa.
penat la sehhhh. D:

prelims is like just around the corner.
playing BOOO-CHAKKKKKK with me ;D
and im trying real real hurd to mugmug like a fugging retard! D:
but the only thing i realise im mugging is, mathematics.
wahhhh, bole caye ke ni? ;D
and mathematics mock just now was do-able. ;D
at least i can do what i used to cannot do.
abe, vectors ngan circle properties semua hanna leave blank!
wahhh, how pass like that? ;D

ohhhhhhh! and my holiday essay assignment.
the one i did on Promises.
i totally PINNED IT! ;D
even Mdm Zainah loves it because its one of those nice essays.
ONE OF THOSE because im not the only one
who write very good essays.
i pwned it, 20/30! ;D
i loooooooove english. <3

life is like food when you cook.
add spice to make it taste nice. ;D
and my spices are non other thannnn.
Sofiaaa, Sherraaaa and Keandraaaa.
andandand.
Nadhiraaaaah, Nadhilaaaaah and Azlin. ;D
haha, i love having great friends like awesome people i have to make me laugh.
like my class, 4D. ;D
oh,not to mention, umarrudin who always asks about my day every single day.
withoutfail.
he's like ever so strangely concern. ;D
thnks,dudeeee!
hehhhh!

till whenever i raaaaant.
byeeeee!

i remember those times.
when i fall, you had my back.
and when im all stressed, tensed up
that i thought it was the end and all i could think of is giving up.
i remember you would be there to be my strength and shelter.
my source of protection.
because you make my life worth living for.
you will pull me back up to my feet again.
and slowly revive me back.
and you would always be one of the reason when i rejoice after every failure.
but, ever since you're gone.
every since you went away like you never existed in my life, i struggled badly.
i have a really hard time to rejoice every time i fail.
because you werent there anymore to pull me back up.
and constantly telling me to not give up.
you were no longer part of my strength.
and i miss that in me.
i miss you in me.
and i wonder, if every now and then.
someone would think of me and ask.
"i wonder how is she doing right now"
because i always do.
i miss someone,telling me that i can do it.
i miss having heart to heart talk with someone.
i miss just simply talking to him,but i know.
we can never be as close as how we were last time.

for old time sake,please?

2009-07-29T12:48:00.002+08:00

im burning with a feverrrr.
haha,last time i check my temperature was 38.7.
it doesnt seem to fall actually until i eat this medicine
its pink and it looks like skittles.
it makes me sweat like a piggg!
like seriously uhhh! ;D

i was given 2 days MC.
and im considering not to have PE as yes, im still sickkkk.
and you know being all hot makes me uncomfortable.
because everywhere i touch gets hot.
and thus, i get uncomfortable.

i cant even sleep well last night.
i was all tossing and turning and i cant really define
what is hot and clod.
because i feel neither hot nor cold.
despite being in an air-conditioned room. D:

im praying that i will get better because im missing lessons.
and i miss my class and girlfriends ;D

2009-07-25T22:55:00.004+08:00

ECHAAAAA SAYS "HELOOOOO!"
she now knows how to posing posing at the camera already.
im gonna selitselitkan gambar my baby around this post oke?
haha, so you people would giggle how she has a potential to be a superrrr model.
oke,perasaaaaaan.

after the post previously,
many actually bombard me with questions and
"are you okeh s" and "cheerrr up"
i really really really really appreciate it.
namely, sofiaaaa nadhilahhh and umarrudin. <3
and nadhirah who comforted me when i broke down last friday.
its nice having great lovely friends. ;D

this morning,when i woke up at 8:30 am.
and my morning went like this.

sister: hanna, gothika (my hamster) hilang tau
hanna: whaaa... huhhh?
sister: tika hilang,cage jatuh,xenon(my other hamster) aja dapat jumpa.
hanna: alaa, macam mana bole jatuh?
sister:entaaaah
hanna: ohhh...

then i went back to sleep.
because i was very sleeeeepy ;D

when i woke up.
then i started to feels orry for Gothika.
because he was a nice and very obedient hamster.
why must he go too sooon D:
so,i was devastated.
and crushed.

hours later, my sister came to my room and said that
Xenon, gave birth,to triplets.
cute tinyyy ones.
i dont know how to feel.
im wasnt happy, i wasnt sadd.
just,neutral.
th daddy went, and then come the children.
family drama betul la mereka!
kalah manusia ;D

anakanak dia kesian,anak yatim.
abe the mum,single mum.
she looks caring.
lets hope she wont kill her babies.
like my other hamsters did.
cruel benaaaar! ;D

so i,solely came up with a few scenarios that might happen to their rumah tangga
or put in simpler english term, marriage. HAH! wahh,da jadi macam CSI gituuu ;D

first case: since Xenon was always bullying Gothika. my dear Goth cannot stand it. so they fought, worst then ever before. so Goth, slammed himself against their house also known as the cage causing it to fall, well too much of a strength. go build it up kot. them he took that chance to fleeeee, far away from Xenon, maybe he misses a step or two. he fell down my balcony. or even commit suicide. tsk tsk.
second case: after their marriage, they stayed together. and thus they make love, duhhh! so a few months later, Xenon found herself pregnant. not one but three babies. they were overjoyed. and stick together like glueeee. but we dont feel happiness forever. agreed? Goth later got fired or maybe got pay cut resulting to him not being able to support the family later on. like who is going to afford the milk and food of the children. education and expenses. thus, he got depressed. and every morning,he will go to the door of th house and stood up, thinking,in deep thoughts. so when Xenon is about to give birth, Goth panic as he might not afford the bills later on that he slammed himself against their house and causes it to fall. and since he is confuse he just miss a step or two and fell down my balcony or commit suicide.

third case: i think, its the wind theat causes the cage to fall. and thus, since Xenon is about to give birth, she fell and painfully, crawl towards my balcony door and stayed there while maybe Goth is trying to seek help but fell off my balcony.

forth case: Goth may still be in th house somewhere. maybe somehow,he managed to get himself out of th balcony. and somehow,i think theres some conspiracy going on between Goth and Echaaaa. because when i ask her, she just stayed still. guilt? imma make her speak up!

somehow i think case threee makes more logical sense than the rest.
still my condolences to the mum and babies. its oke, we will always be supporting you
no matter what,
you are not alone. ;D

oke this post is getting abit to farrrr.
post ini tak perluuuu! (:
pasal macam stepppp cuteeee,stop it uh (:

haha, still Gothika, if you are here somewhere.
please keluar. ;D
i miss yooo.

a few days before Gothika left?
i was having breakfast at th dining table before going to school.
their cage happen to be outside the balcony which means near th dining room.
and i saw Gothika standing still at the door.
not moving at all.
i stared at him.
its like,he's trying to tell me something.
and i was just wondering what was it.
but i know,i could be something baddd.
but i dont know it will really happen.
i should have thought of it.

haha, told yooo my Echaaaaaa baby will make it to become a Top Model. ;D
wahh,better start training her.
hahaaha! ;D
somehow,she know when i was going to take a picture of her.
how cute this that?!

haha.
im blogging to much already.
haha, byeees.
and now
for my picture! ;D
asyik gambar Echaaaa aja!
aku pun nak glamour.

checkkkk out th hair mannn! ;D

and to syarifah syazanatul aisyah and umarrudin.
GET WELL SOOOOOON! :D

well,maybe god have his own way to show how much he care for us,does he?
he works in many ways indeed,
and i love him so much.
he knew times when i need someone the most.
and he would simply just help me find a way out.
like gathering all my courage together to talk to someone.
or someone would talk to me.
or me and someone would simply cross each others path.
he knows simple things like this
makes a hell great difference to my life.
it just banishes this feeling of missing someone
at a split second.
i wasnt expecting much.
seconds will do.
and he really does listen to my prayers.

and that someone,will always be in my prayers.

arm wrestling queeeeeen, ftw! <3

2009-07-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

if people starts to put high hopes on you.
and you cant bare to let them down again.
because all yr life,your life,
you're just another disappointment.
no matter how hard you try to change.
no matter how hard you push on, you
can never be the girl they will
held up high and claim that im worth it.
its superrrr hard to face failures.
and god knows how hard i tried to choke back tears
every single time i fail.
every single time i fall.
every single time i become a source f disappointment.
i hate failing,because it just aint me.
i have always wanted to be the best,but i dont want to
showcase my ego.
im sick of being a disappointment to people,especially my parents.
when they hope so much for me.
i pressure myself more,because i dont want them to shed a tear on me.
enough already with all the sacrifices they made for me.
now i want to show then that i can do it,maybe better.
i want to be this girl whom people look up to
this girl people is proud of.
i dont want to have another setback,
i really want to do my best.
but im tireddd now.
im really tired.
tired of trying my best to impress.

there aint gonna be another letdown.
imma face this alone.
and make it happen.
once and for all.

again, i've been in deepdeep thoughts lately.
and i just at times,need space to breathe.
with all my schedule so jam packed, i can hardly consider my future options.
as badly as i want to go to SP and get to a course of my choice,
i dont know it its really that im after.
or should i go after my passion,
culinary skills, baking,catering.
SHATEC?
what about TP?

im confuse.
we shall see the outcome.
one im done and over with o levels.
when im holding on to the result slip.
when i look at my score.
then i shall question my options again.
for now,maybe.
i should just strive to impress.

im mentally tired.
that i could just die.
seriously.

plus, trying to clear my mind
have been a chore for me.
well,lately,that is.
i've been thinking too much lately.
but the strange thing is.
um.
i've gain another level of self-esteem.
its like,i dont think countless times before making a comment.
i could just talk.
bam,i can talk!
just relate with people.

i dont know what to describe my life now.
im coping, at the same time im struggling.
dang!
what is this feeling?

i prefer to just stay within my thoughts.
rather than opening up and let people know what i've been thinking.
come to think of it.
i've been hiding stuffs from my friends.
i'd rather keep some stuff to myself.
i just,
*sighs.
dont want to talk about this.

i just need a little time alone for myself.
and at the same time,i dont want to get too emotional.
well,this post is already emotional enough.

realise?
not even a single ':D'

cant take it anymore.
i just want to screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam!
scream my lungs out,till my throats bleed. till the tears fall.

i just want to ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuun!
away from everything, i dont want to stop,
faster and faster and faster, falling out of reality.

i just want to cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
till everything's over and my heart feels lighter
like the weight on my shoulders have been lifted.

impossible?

i just need a hug, it will mean so much to me right now.
just to tell me im not going psycho and things are fine.
im just thinking wildly too much.

and to someone,
im constantly wondering
if you are oke right now.
i want to catch up with you.
theres just so much i want to tell you.
will we be able to speak like before?
but now,i feel like i need you to just hear my shits.
and i want to hear yours.

i read this girl's blog.
though she's just a friend or schoolmate
or whatever.
reading her rants about life.
somehow made me teared a little?
whoa, life and great expectations
they sound simple.
but,hah.
imagine the whole world realying on you to save the world.
its like having the weight of the whole world on your shoulders.
girl,cheer up.
i know, easier said than done.

TAPESTRY! gig gig gig gig

2009-07-19T00:05:00.008+08:00

three words.
thats it oke?

TAPESTRY WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEE SHIT! ;D

oke,thats four.
nice music.
nice people.
nice day ;D

i haddd funnn!

thnks umarrudin anddd sister ;D
hahaha!

i was lateeee.
but we made it there.
first to One Fullerton (?)
abestu, me ngan umarrudin made our way to Ngee Ann there
because his sister were there already.
the bands are cool awesome shit mann ;D
haha.

i was mesmerized. ;D
went dinner after that with umar sahajaa.
thought of going par east plaza but in th end got lost somehow
and got so tireddd of walking.
so we ended up at MacD.
but there not even a single seat. D:
hidup punya la sedihh!
so,we take away abe beli Mccafe andddd sat near taka and eaaaat.
haha.

umarrudin and ayuni gerekkk plus kekek gilaaa bodooo ;D
haha,and the day was really nice but tiring (:
didnt bother to take alot of photos.
because i think today is gonna be in memory like foreverrrrrrrrr.

so here are pictures.
and i dont bother to edit ;D
dont bother too much about the pictures.
me ngan umarrr ajaaa,
pasal segaaaan. ;D
chehhhhhhh stepppppppp!

haha, best friends make everything happen.
best friends make living worthwhile ;D
lifeeee sure is greattt! (:

some poeples ask me go this blog la.
abe kan ada gambar orang cry abe amik gambar nangis
macam shiok sendiri.
abe muka mintak kena smacking sehhh.
oke,im being mean now.
shut up.

andddd.
HAPPY ONE MONTHSARY to Q&A ;D
you know who you areee!

2009-07-17T16:06:00.003+08:00

it seems like yesterday
we were folding paper hearts
and twisting tissues to roses.

it seems like just last night
we were staring into the sky
wishing on every single star.

time flies fast.
and every moment was a memory.
a pain yet the most beautiful memory
of all my life.

we can blame nobody.
the heart shuts itself to love.
and things get different.
and loving gets painful.

aint another salve for this pain.
distance are boundaries.
pain is joy.
tears are laughters.

its confusing.
its contradicting.
how do i move on from here.
and learn to take another step,
this time without you.

we're strangers to each other's presence.
and we were like nothing.
and i like the way it should be.

we cross each other's path.
and my heart will beat so fast.
it feels so alive.
and i like the way your presence make
my heart feel so foreign.

you're one of a kind.
and i like they way we are.
but it aint easy.
somehow i think.
you're hard to be replaced.

strangers then dust,hanna.
<3

i wrote a new song.
haha, the lyrics are obvious aint it.
i love how it sounds.
nice.

6 months.
it has been 6 months surviving without you.
i'd never thought i'd ever made it this far.
but i really did.
on my own.
6 months ago, i make myself believe i cnt move on.
but now, im taking each step slowly.
i ownder what will happen 6 months later,
in the future.
<3

contradictions and SATANISM!

2009-07-13T22:46:00.004+08:00

a thousand different lies
i create
to contradict my love/hatred
i have had for you.

its fcuking hard to let go and forget the past.
but i will learn,soon one fine day.
i just,
miss you.

nevermind,forget it.

i miss baking like so so so so so muchhh! D:
haha, since majors are on the way hereee.
i can hardly find time to bake anymore.
awe~

i've been having school form 7:45am all the way to 9pm every single day
except for tuesday.
because there arent night classes.
lifes a teeny weeeny bit stressful
but i know.
its worth it.
once in a life time,working so hard like fuggg! ;D
im having a nice kick start on revision.
and suddenly, i love studying.
oke,i will be lying if i say i love it COMPLETELY
because most of the time
after studying all my brain juice all drained out.
and im mentally exhausted at the end of th day.
this goes on until majors.
not like i care so much anyway.

i have a current addiction like right now
latest best digs everrrrr! ;D
i develop a superpowerful interest on
SATANISM. <3
and yes,that includes all those
witchcraft, voodoo,demons, cults.
e t c.

weird huh? ;D
so.
dark?
jyeaaa,but well.
i have been reading up alot on them.
and even bought a book that is based on a true story.
Pig Island by Mo Hayder.

wont be updating regularly.
so check in for updates every now and then.
because i might just pop in :D
LOVES!

messed shits up.

2009-07-11T23:20:00.005+08:00

"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. "
-Henri Nouwen

things got messed up somehow.
but tis time, i think.
its me.
well, babe you arent at fault.
shouldnt have brought it up in th first place.
so im guilty fr making you like this.
babe,im sorry.
its just that i feel like im losing you.
im sorry.

*sighs.
i seriously feel i messed up everything
and that sometimes things just hang on the line
and you dont know what to do
because if you take another step you will fall
and if you dont,
you'll still fall.

fuggg life now.
all i want is
to get back what i used to have now
that is snached away from me.
and i miss one-on-ones.
yes,im jealous.
but i feeel unattended. D:

anyway yesterday,i was late fr night class.
because firstly i woke up late.
and secondly AN( its a name, not 'an') haha.
anyway and told me to wait fr him and in th end he cnt make it
so i ended up lepakkk ngan budaks ITE. ;D
oh and they are his friends?
haha, gerekk la k?
bole la tahan and the magic trick was awesomeeee. ;D
siaakkkk eh kau, AN!

anyway.
preparation for O levels is doing fine
though i have a lot to catch up on! D:
but i know i can make it.

but now,im starting to question my options.
i baddddly wanted TOURISM AND RESORT MANAGEMENT
but on a second thought
i think i can do much more better in FOOD SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY,CATERING?
or better SHATEC?
im totally confused.
i loveeee public relations dealing with people and all.
but fooooood coooking bakinggg all those are my passion.
help?

i miss someone.
really much right now.
though we talked like last week?
or last two weeks?
but someone is busy.
and i cnt bring myself to talk to someone.
and it irritates me.
because at times.
i can just sit and stare at people
but my mind,thinks of someone.
hey youuu, i miss you.
talk soon?

and fr my only bby,my lover,my sayang,my all,my world.
babe,you know who you are.
im so sorry.
but i just want the YOU back.
i miss yr presence.
i love you. <3

shit,i messed up.

2009-06-27T16:16:00.004+08:00

"when people starts talking
and lifes losing hope on sanity
would you keep holding on?
when your dreams were teased
and you werent confident
would you pursue on your dream?
when your world turn dark
when your light left.
and your soul moans for attention
and struggles to break free.
would you just cry and die?"

-cry and die

after i d k how long break, FINALLY
im here blogging again ;D

maybe sofia gets a little bit agitated going to my blog with no updates.
well,maybe some of my readers (if i even have any) were begging to get updates
from me.
haha
i have only one reason and i think its th best i can give everyone.
IM SIMPLY LAZY ;D
oke?
oke,end of story.

lifes been great so far since school reopens (:
and i like it. (:
i've finally touched my books and actually revise my work.

today is youth day.
youth day is a holiday.
it is a holiday for students/youth.
haha,oke im being lame now (:
so first half of the day i spent time at home writing my new song.
whoaaa!
i have enough songs to actually make an album!
with all my covers and songs.
haha, then i shall dedicate the album to everyone who
has been my inspiration throughout this whole album-making journey.
especially to this someone who has always been my main inspiration.

oke,im seriously off-track now.

where was i?

oh jyeaaaa!
the second half of my day, i went to th library to study with Umarrudin.
haha,i seriously forgot how he actually look like
so i started imagining myself stepping into the library and found some guy whom i think looks like him and sat beside him.
i will go all "Hey,sorry i was late."
then th guy would just stare at me and give me th W T F look. ;D
haha!
but anyhoo,its lucky he said he sat near the escalator so when i make my way up.
the moment my head can see the virginal teens thingy, i saw some guy in black shirt who
nods and kindda weves at me,
oke,so thats him ;D
haha,lucky no such incident that i was imagining came true.
tsk.
so we started with our home works.
which actually i didnt actually finish totally as umar would just burst into laughters
all of a sudden! xD
haha,kekek!
then got this i d k, show i think at the library stage there
and they keep on repeat itself repeat itself repeat itself. ;D
and umar went all like "SHUT UP UHH!"
haha, abe nak step fierce! (:
but he kekek!
i d k we could get along so damn well la! ;D

and his stories about school were hilarious like fuggggballs ;D
haha,he got some collection of hilarious teachers, like Ms Chin.
YES!
THAT miss chin who used to teach Jurongville with her "OGAYs"
haha.
thats was nice.

some inside jokes we share like
"THE HANTU-FACED MASK!"
haha, nahh you guys wont get it.
only umar and me get it.
haha.
plus my old friend "WAN HILMI"
haha.
and th "MUKA MAINTAIN UH"
and "makan tayar/tayar masak sambal"
and and and the time he saw some people
who to me "muka mintak kena tampar"
and he went all "who cares? i dont care!"
okeee alot more.

his jokes uhhh, so damn random gila nak mampos gone case nyaaa uhh! ;D

abe everywhere we go kaaan, confirm see people he know one.
oke,not see but meet. ;D
haha, tsk.
some got th wrong idea, w t h?
haha,padahal padahal.
and he keeps on repeating th same thing to them, "kawan laa!" or "what date?! friend la!"
haha.
after library we went to Banquet to have lunch.
because i was starving like pigggg.
he keeps on asking me where to eat and i will just go th loyar buruk way like
"anywhere got food to eat" and all.
haha, then he was like "oke,makan tayar la,potong kecikkecik."
hehhhh!
a n w at first when we sat down at banquet,he said he just want to have a drink ;D
sekali after i buy my usual,Bakmie, he went to buy Chicken Rice only that his chicken is orangey-red. (:
haha, makan punya la cepat! (:
still time makan pun bole buat orang ketawa.
hehhhh. ;D
then we head back home.
we walked home beause we initially thought his house quite near to mine. ;D
padahal jalan berbatu jauh,chehhh!
haha,on th way home met my uncle, bbual skejap ngan diaaa.
and the rest walk home laughing our arses of with each others sillt tactic.

haha,today was niceeeeee! ;D
biasabiasakan selalu yer?

you were the sweetest lullaby that have ever sung me to sleep.
yes,thinking of you were my lullaby each night.
and you were the reason i slept soundly each night.
i m y.

2009-06-23T12:10:00.003+08:00

AUTOBOTS,ROLL OUT!

TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN is
FRIGGING AWESOME! (:

anddd watching th movie premier with my girlfriend makes it even more worthwhile& awesome!
haha,worth every word babe! (:

almost throughtout th whole movie me and sofia was constantly screaming

"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"
"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"
"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"

well,actually the whole theater was filled with it la ;D
and loads of scenes which everyone was laughing their arse of! xD
haha.
the AUTOBOTS are superfriggingmarvelouslyawesomestlypowerfullyveryveryreallyreallyfugging AWESOME!
and hilarious.
haha.
and theres two scenes that i actually cried D:

BESTEST MOVIE EVERRRRRRRRRRR! ;D
haha,rate it 10/5 stars! :D

you peoples should watch it ;D
haha,i dont really know how to write a movie review.
just go watch it.
because not only yr money is worth every penny
but, you get to see awesome cars and machines and awesome aircrafts
and military stuffs.
and yoo get to see how robot and humans actually can work together.
oh,and go anti-DECEPTICONS. ;D
haha

i will braggggggg about it fr days.
geez
i still got th TRANSFORMERS atmosphere.
haha,i think i wanna watch it agaaaaaain ;D

i will post pictures on that night sooooon! ;D

WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN!

2009-06-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN premier!
22 June 2009!
CATHAY!
SOFIA!
HANNA!

its like being th first to watch it i guess? ;D
we're gonna have our piece of fun.
o m g i love sofia aini ;D
its just the two of us.
*eyebrow go up anddd down.

i watched th trailer like over and over and over and over again.
all in different versions.
geez, that badddd?
haha, anddddddd i even learnt to play the soundtrack, New Divide by Linkin Park
on guitar.
just to add in to th TRANSFORMERS 2 atmosphere! (:
tomorrow night is going to rockkkk!

anddddddddddddddddddd!

I LOVE SOFIA AINI very very very very muchhh!
because she won th tix and thought of me thereafter ;D
awe.

and i love her not only because she gave me a chance to be at a movie premier
especially if its TRANSFORMERS. *screaaaaaaaaams
haha, believe me im not THAT materialistic.
i still love her every other day even if she punches me in th face and say fugg yoooo biatch.
because i know she wont really mean it and deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down inside she ~~desires~~ for me.
okeee, THAT sounds so very wronggg ;D
i mean a best friend like ME to LOVE (:
tsk,whos getting th wrong idea huhh?

so now i feel like hugging her and kissing her and throw her up to th sky and catch her back and spin her around until she throws up! (:

haha! ;D

i love yoo girl. <3

i think im growing fat.
and i hate to say this
because it kindda make me look or sound like anorexic or something?
and its sickkkk.
a n w,after weeks, I BAKED! (:
just another ordinary CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES ;D
haha,will post pictures on my baking afternoon sooooon,i promise (;
plus pinky swear.
andddd, i made a new song anddd a new song cover ;D
this person will be so lucky because this person is my inspiration for my new song.
the song makes me cryyyy D:
haha.
like who wants to know? (:
and a lip sync videooo of Just Dance with my sister.
just another crazayeee sister moment we haddd at some shopping centre.
should i post it uppp? ;D

im feeling hot right now.
eventhough it rained like a few moments agoooo? ;D
no thats hours.
i want to head of to th nearest aircon room ;D
im SO not doing any good for EARTH,well.
im sorry D:

anddd those people who got dear hanna to link or relink,
its done! ;D
i EVEN CHANGED my blogsonggg! ;D

im too good am i? ;D

"she made her way towards me.
my heart skiped a beat.
for i know th look in her eyes.
define: HURT
she stopped inches away from me
and stare deep in my eyes.
she open her mouth and began to speak.
my heart was racing.
"how do you heal a broken heart? because mine just got hurt. BADLY"
what should i say?
how should i answer?
what do i do?
will a shoulder to cry on help?
a listening ear?
cliche shits?
instead i stared back into her eys and said
"how do YOU mend a broken heart? mine's not even healed"
tsk."

lifes frigging awesome! ;D

2009-06-17T20:35:00.003+08:00

thank you so very much for not believing in me.
thank you so very much for the efforts and sacrifices you wasted for me.
apparently, you dont need my attention.
and i silently learnt that neither do i need you to be by my side anymore.
but i swear i tried my very best.
i've put my heart and soul.
nothing's gone a miss through out.
but at times,i got sick and tired.
and i gave up.
but sometimes things change and we have to let go.
though letting go isnt always pleasant.
besides,we have got to go our own way someday somehow anyway.
maybe now is the right time.
poeple change.
you change.
i change.
we grew tired fighting and protecting.
we gave up for defending is meaningless.
there aint a reason to why should we carry on.
so, its farewell.
its goodbye.
its the end.
i shall take my leave now.
and throw away all that we've fight as memories.
silent and unspoken.

i lost this valuable ring i had from someone.
im devastated.
maybe theres something behind it all.
but noting can ever replace that ring.
even if yooo get me a BIG HEAVY GOLD RINGD:
i LOVE that ringgg so so so much.

hahaha, i feel so strange without it ;D

i've been thinking.
and my mind is a mess.
life has been confusing.
and i hate it.
because its give me migraines.

i've seriously been in 'IN DEEP THOUGHT' mood.
i've seriously been thinking.

hm...

2009-06-10T22:19:00.003+08:00

which was it supposed to be?
a sweet dream?
a nightmare?
its been three nights in a row.
and four dreams.
all of which were dreams of you?
when i wasnt even thinking of you.
when your existence almost depletes from my life.
what are th dream trying to tell me.
or it is me and my wild imaginations.

anyway,they're just dreams right?
nothing more?
another game of th mind.
i wish i could believe that.

because dreaming of you, was sweet.
at th same time painful.
what is happening?

and i miss that someone. D:

finallyyyy, and update huh?
haha, actually i want to update yesterday.
but books are calling me.
so,i got seduced and i read them instead.
im so highly addicted to th House Of Night Series. ;D
fck,im gonna finish the forth book like REAL soon.
daddy,please get me the fifth book (:
HUNTED!HUNTED!HUNTED!
haha,seriously,th book is so superrrr addictive and i cnt believe im saying this
the second best series i've ever read.
call me a geek or anything bu i still find Harry Potter series is THE BOMB! (:
so that means th House of Night series just kicked th Twilight series to third best series i've read.

anyhooo,i find it weird when i read th twilight series
i fell in love with Jacob Black since New Moon.
when almost anyone will drool over Edward Cullen.
haha,oke some just call it weird.
but throughout th entire series,im simply drooling over Jacob Black.
haha,i wish i could fall in love with him.
oh,wait.
i just did! ;D

im talking about books.
whoaaaaa.
jyeaaaa,im a book worm.
so whaaaaaaaaat? (:
im superrrrr handicap without a reading material.
so any book recomendations?

andddd so,in th House of Night Series,
i fell in love withh Erik Night.
haha,his character makes me droooooooooool.
though i still fin Heath's possesive attitude towars Zoeyy id kindda coool,
but still Erik Night. ;D

t m r i have geography remedial.
im only looking forward to it because
one; i can meet SOFIA AINI! ;D like finallyyyyy.
two; brush up humans. (: a little extra effort wont hurt right? haha.
three; i miss schoool.
four; i get to wake up early.haha after daysssss of waking up latee. (:
FIVE! SOFIA IS GONNA HANG OUT AT MY CRIB AFTER THAT! ;D

im superrrrrrrrrrrrrr elateddd oke? (:
haha,i've been looking forward to thaaaaat!

and the weekends!
JOHORE BAHRU HERE I COME! ;D

*jumps around for joyyyy!

because this means, shopshopshopshopingggggggggggggggg! (:
hehhh!
plus i didnt really get a full day chance to indulge myself in th Great Singapore Sale oke? (:

haha,andddd i dont know what to wear.
will Johor be hot? (:
im thinking of wearing my overalls,and its shorts.
so i wont feel that warm.
we shall seee(:

souveneirs anyone? ;D

holidays. ;D
my days are full with COOKING and completeing homeworks.
thennnn th best part of th day, GUITARING (:
think im getting better?

haha,i did a few covers.
but im superrrrrrrrrr embarassed to post it upp.
haha,maybe if i get THAT muchhhh confidence in postinggg them.
though i think some songs i sound like a toad calling for rain (:
haha,but th rest is oke la i guess ;D
my curent addiction?
my babylove! ;D
i just got her!

everyone,this is Echaaaaaaaaaaaaa! (:
isnt she cuteeeee?
haha,this baby is so adorable and will always kindda not literally hug me back when i tell her my problems.
and she just stay still,like she understands what im talking about (:
she make my dayyyy everytime when i ask her to kiss me and she will lick my ear. (:
well,thats because i carried her on my shoulder. like you do to babies
i love her even if she turns grumpy and will stare at me. (:
i know she loves me too,because she never pee or poo on me like she did to others.
hehhhh!

its lateeee (:
im turning in.
toooodlessss! ;D

and people whom ask me to link them up,i have! ;D
so smileeee.

2009-06-05T16:45:00.003+08:00

im currently on th phone with Nadhiraaaah darlinggg! (:
rumaaah dia kecoh macam maddd house okeeee?
gilerrrrr.

a n w.
th English Enrichment i attended four days was a bore
plus kindda a waste of time.
tsk.
SO MUCH FOR 'OPERATION DISTINCTION'
when we are treated like as if this is our first year taking english.
tsk.
whats the use of having operation distinction for selected students
when whatever that is taught is like whatever we learn in school. ;D
whats with going through the format and paragraph mann?
aint this operation thingy suppose to equip us with the necessary skills to score a distinction.
and NOT going through format. ;D

well,i got bored of it anyways.
its a good thing theres Jia Hui.
we irritated ourselves and laugh super loudd! ;D

haha,many hilarious incidents happen
like Jia Hui trying to sit without a chair.
and how she comes out with random words like
"Chicken Toast" and "curry puff"
random aye? (:

so literally speaking.
im only starting my holidays next week (:
still,we have to come back to school and do stuffs.

aku is happy currently (:
and i really miss my girlfriends!
ughhh~!

fuggbuggggggg betul! D:

i miss nadhirah.
i miss sofia.
i miss azlin.
i miss nadhilah.
i miss 4D. D:

hehhhh! (:
i think im gonna try new recipes during the holidays.
uhhh,im trying to bake something new instead of cakes cakes cakes and cookies.
uhhhh,maybe i should try baking pies and muffins and cupcakes!
haha. ;D

so maybe this weekend imma try
Shepard's Pie ANDDDDDDD my very own speciality, BROWINES! (:

and waste my midnight hearing misteri jam dua belas,MJ12!
because at times it aint scary pasal sound effect mahal import dari africa.
abe cerita tak da.
lagu nonsense yang main.
tsktsktsk.

okee soo,update soon.
toodles people! (:

and to my helooo beloooo, have hope,faith and believe.
stay&remain strong as you are.
i love you and sayang you and cinta you oke? ;D
im always here for you.
(because it sounds wrong if i say im always by yr side,because i aint yr shadow moreover ghost uhhh!)

end of story.
the end.

2009-05-25T20:45:00.003+08:00

nothing more than infatuation.
the heart aint ready for anymore.
but why does feel so warm inside when i think of you?
aint it confusing.

if this isnt love
then what is it,sugar?
LOVE.

pardon me for not updating for a superrrrrr long periodddddd of time.
its not that im so busy.
im just lazy (:

so i had F&N Practical today.
haha,
im not satisfied with myself.
but i love my dishes because they are all niceee!
delicious and scrumptious!
YUM (:
pictures talk.
dont you know that?

out of all, i only love my Mango Pudding Presentation.
haha, but overall they are so tempting,
and taste awesome! :D
haha,
except that th custard wont turn to custard after like 3 tries?
i was pissed but it turned out well on th 4th try.
haha, perseverance really do pay off.
at th end of it all,
i was so superrrrrrrrrrrrr tired like w t h.
like i ran a hundred miles chasing th wind.

bubble teaaa-ing with sofia aini after that.
haha,i haddd a greaaaat laugh with her :D
i l y,babe!

i am seriously out of ideas what to rant.
haha,so i shall take my leave. :D

until whenever im so free (:

2009-05-14T21:59:00.005+08:00

"soft, lingering lullabies that caress me
to sleep,every night.
bringing me to sweetdreams
and little make-believe fantasies."

lifes been a passing winddd.
all you know, mid year examinations is sooooo over ;D
finally eh?
after days and nights of mugging like crazaye
and moaninggg.
OH and being mentally exhausted.
haha, finalllly! ;D

i've NEVER been this mentally exhausted beforeeee.
um,whats done is done kan?
no use crying over spilled milk.
hehhh! ;D
so whatever results i get,i will try to accept it. ;D

chehhhhhhhhhhh!

today was niceeee. ;D
kindda picnic in the fields near Sherra and Kendra house ;D
haha, brought both my guitar, eleh,abe nak step rocker chic eh! ;D
haha.
sat on the grass, eat, guitar-ed, waveboard-ed,camwhore-ed,laugh.
haha, i havd a great time.
SUPERRRRRR GREAT! ;D

and my last string of both my guitar broke at th same day (:
baik or whaaaaaaaaat?
haha, one fixed.
while my purple one, awwe~ D:
favourite sehhh.
but still,guitar-ed with no last string.
quite nice lehhh! ;D

k steppppp.

abehhh,went homeee.
some poeple uhh,look veryvery irritated because i brought two guitar
and block their way.
haha, sorry luhhh!
my fault uh? ;D

met hafaz.
wahhh,mukaaaa tak leh angkat uhh.
macam surprise gilerrrr ;D
w t h.

whoa.
ada orang label me rocker sehhh ;D
step rocker ajaaa (:

hm.
i try to get th pictures fr today soooon ;D
see mood ehhh! ;D

im gonna watch X MEN Origins:Wolverine tmr! ;D
nighty show!

and since theres no school tmr.
pleaseeeeeeeee just someone,bring me out
for breakfast,lunch or lepak.
im boreddd at homeeee D:

*MOANS AND GROANS!

freak holidays! D:

2009-05-11T19:52:00.002+08:00

come closer.
i still believe in miracles.
and i secretly wish for you.

i have FOUR more papers to gooooo! ;D

PAPERS TO RUN DOWN THIS WEEK:

-MATHEMATICS PAPER 2
-Science (PHYSICS)
-SCIENCE PAPER 1
-FOOD & NUTRITION

pray that i will still survive at the end of the week.
simply because i've been having MAJOR headaches this few days
and it hurts alot that i cant describe how painful it is,like seriously. D:
i think i had a brain crash or something.
haha,too much mugging i guess. ;D

weekends are nice.
and i love last friday night. ;D
haha.
now,i feel stupid.
because all th while i though this person hated me;D
haha,still,it was nice just talking.
again,again,again.
REWINDDD.

i've been eating TOM YUM for three days.
Friday,Sunday and Today ;D
haha, so now i no longer have cravings for them.
maybe i wont have cravings for tom yum for a month or something.
but now i have cravings for Cili Padi ;D
hahaha.

mothers' day was nice;D
ans created a song for mum.
and sang for her.
me and my sister went shopping on friday for mothers' day presents.
haha,shopping berlambak!
we got mum,a purse, a necklace a personalise keychain andddd a cute bear. ;D
hahaha.
banyak kan? ;D
kalau bole,nak beli satu lorry ;D

someone teach me screamo D:
because im jealous my sister can and i cant D:
haha.
oke th end ;D

2009-05-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

"hm. aku patah hati uhhh."
"asal?"
"pasal,dia hot."

when we cross each other's path.
i love the way my heart beats so fast
and my mind went haywire.
i miss those feelings.
haha,dont bother!

I HAVE RUN DOWN ALL TH
PAPERS I HAD TO RUN DOWN
THIS WEEEEK! (:

im a happpehh girl now! (:
k,not really.
but currently im superrr contented!
why?
because i have NO school tmr and on Mondayyy! (:
time to muggggg.
and time to relax.
lifes great aint it?

i love today.
haha,i've been saying this like everyday before i go to sleep.
its like chanting actually.
"i love today, tomorrows gonna a a better day."
all th way in my mind until i go to sleep..

a n w.
i love todayyy.
oke who wouldnt love time with SOFIA KENDRA AND SHERRA?
they have NEVER fail to make me laugh till i cry. ;D
we guitar-ed,we sing we took videos, we eat.
but we didnt really study much. (:
haha.
me and sofia make a cover to i'm yours
after that.
haha.
its nice actually.
but i look stupid. ;D

and i finally got to spend time ALONE with myself.
well,thats two times in a day.
after school, i went straight to th interchange to top up my concession pass.
grab a biteee and went home thereafter.

and after hanging out with my girls. ;D
i went Jurong Point.
aloneeeeee,in fact.
so i spend time walking ard.
looking at stuffs.
mostly thinking of what to get for my mum for mothers' day. (:
with music blasting to my ears from my headphones.
window-shopping around is kindda cool actually.
should do that more often ey? (:

im STILL having CRAVINGS for TOM YUM!
and im superrrrrr lazy to cook.
because now,i lost inspiration to cook alrd.
like i cant really come out with new wacky recepies anymore.
and thats sadddd. (:

still,i favour baking. ;D

im still wondering what to do tmr.
hm. (:
someone bring me out.

"i want to roam around,
and be free.
dont want another failure
to bring me down."

LIFE'S A BLESS. ;D
sweetdreams

2009-05-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

why do you always appear in my dreams
these days?
its like my little make believe fantasies,
where i drool over you.
and the smile you threw to me.
it was oh-so-sincere.
oh,well.
they're just dreams.
you appear in my darkest nightmares.
where i bleed on the floor and you walk away.
they haunt me.
oh,well.
they're just nightmares.
i want DEJAVU.
to see us laughing together like in my deepest fantasies.
how i wish.
I M Y.

ITS OFFICIAL!
SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA'S
CHEMISTRY IS SURVIVING ON LIFE SUPPORT! D:
*moans&groans.

group studying just now with Sherra, Sofia and Kendra was
THE BEST! ;D
ohhh and azri too though we dont talk much,do we?
hahah! xD

OKE.
OFF to mugging session part 3! (:

2009-05-05T19:05:00.002+08:00

"which do you believe in? coincidence? or everything that happen,
happen for a reason"

"i aint a toy you play around with when you get bored
then toss it aside, all alone when you've found companion."

korang apasal?
aku gini ke,aku gitu ke.
aku nya pasal uh!
yang penting
aku tak menyusahkan hidup kau kan?
kan kau menyusahkan hidup aku apa faedah nya uh?
cakap tak beralas,tak consider ke perasaan orang.
cakap asal main lepas aja.
kimakkkkk uh, aku tak heran la kau terror mana.
budak macam korang bole buang jauhjauh uh!

stop it laa koranggg.
aku bukan patung mainan la seh.
layan kerana terpaksa.
bila ada masalah,datang pat aku.
hah,dangan ikhlas siol aku tolong.
sekarang aku need korang.
korang lesap,lenyap.
entah asal ngan korang ehhh.
irritating sakkkkkk.
apa sehhh salahh aku pat korang.
bukan nak ungkit la kan.
tapi i find it irritating uhh.
korang message aku tak repaly,fuhhh,
satu inbox penuh kau flood suruh orang reply.
sekarang,aku message satu pun tak balas.
bagus,bagus.
biasabiasa kan selalu k?
ini kan kawan?

ughhhh!
life, it just gets better each day huh?

glad i got that one off my chest.
hah.
today, i cook! (:
haha, i know
cooking+mid year=??
haha,but i just feel like going to th kitchen to make something.
so i made.
MANGO PUDDING! (:
i chilled it in the refrigerator.
i i havent tasted yet.

um,so.
as i was cooking.
and i want to make milk,as the recipe needs milkkkk.
so i took out this cup uhhh from the cupboard.
and when i want to wash it.
i saw this flat small cockroach STUCK below the cup.
i threw the cup into the sink and called for help.
haha,w t h kan?
so now i think,my cupboard is like an assasinator,which kills cockroaches.
haha,maybe my cupboard have got cockroach pee everywhere uhhh!
or maybe they made a settlement it the cupboard already uhhh! ;D
haha, o m g.
cockroaches i HATE youuuu to the maximum! xD

Mid-Year Examinations 2009!
Papers down,
-Science Practical
-Higher Malay Paper 1/2
-English Paper 1/2
-Electives {Social Studies & Geography}

Papers to Rundown this wholeeee week!
-Mathematics Paper 1
-Principles Of Account Paper 1
-Science Paper 3
-Principles Of Account Paper 2

haha.
so now, theres this ourbreak swine fluuuuu!
case yang sungguh sedihhh.
as everyday we will have to bring thermometers
to take our temperatures like twice daily.
haha,
yes i know
w t h?
but i believe its for our own good (:

i miss someone. D:
and i suddenly got this urge to talk to him.
and lately all of a sudden
he will appear in my head.
or worst i dreamt of him.
uhhhh!
i got th urge to talk to himm.
hah,but maybe
i shall just stick to playing around in
my own make believe fantasies.
*sighs.

2009-04-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

"people just simply cant help themselves but put me down under.
but i will remain on my ground"

"though you're impossible for me,
i still do hope
the one day in my dreams will come(im dreaming am i?)"

after months of using the previous blogskin!
i FINALLY CHANGED! ;D

hehhh,
i remember th time when i first set up that skin
and its navigations.
people cant help but keep on saying.
"its too simple!"
hah,maybe im just too complicated in my previous skins.

this one is simple.
but sure do takes a hell load of time to complete.
gee, thnks so much computer.
you "NOT RESPONDING" countless times really paid off!
PHEW! (:
glad that one's overrrrrr.

i pass my HIGHER MALAY PAPER! (:
well, i just gotten Paper two so jyeaaaa, at least B4.
68/110 b t w.
and now im starting to wonder, is Higher Malay any use?
because i personally think that i can score better for English.
PFT!
maybe i can score better for both.
well,just maybe.
uh,uh! (:

Mid years are almost here.
and im starting to MUG like craaaaaaaaaazayeeeeeeeeee arseeeeeeeeee bitches!
haha.
im having fuh-fuh-funnnnnnn in school nowadays. ;D
because theres always 4D
and retarded arses like SOFIA and SHERRA and KENDRA and JIA HUI. ;D
haha,
"PORK PAU!"
heh (:
inside joke,get lost and laugh to yourself. ;D

oh!
i got a freaking Distinction for the MYOB thingy i told you about. ;D
haha,nice huh?

something EMBARRASSING happen in school today.
BUT, i wont tell.
hehhh, people who sees me inappropriate today in th afternoon, heh.
sorrryyyyyyyy and nasib baik sofia nampakkk siot.
kalau tak da aku masuk oral gedebak gedebuk ;D
haha.

i love ma skin somehow ;D
like nice like that uhhh.

my weekends are nice.
i bought two new HAMSTERS! (:
which adds on to th other two that i have at home.
ICHIP and ICHOP got rival alrd uhh!

i suddenly got the urge to lepaaaaak with someone new. (:
just anyone.
but new,like those i have not yet lepak with them ever.
lepak is nice once in a while until you got bored of it. (:

and i want to learn those Screamo songs.
those Post metalcore songs (:
they seem cool like o m g w t h! ;D
at least my sister is having a headstart as she have the rockstar voiceeey alrd.
while me?
haha,
in a while you'll hear my voice hoarse,
really really hoarse.
due to too much screaming+singing. ;D
oke,not.
this takes time oi.

until whenever people. ;D
LOVES !

"and i miss not talking to you.
until next weekend then,kawan ;D"

2009-04-22T20:28:00.003+08:00

i personally think mean people should just get a freaking new life
or do something beneficial or whatever apart from being mean.
like seriously.
"MEAN PEOPLE SUCKS"
well,thats a fact! in fact i have the badge close to me,well my heart actually, everyday.
that means i agree to it aint it?
especially those people who would just STARE at you with those
"i wanna eat you like right now" faceeeee and those eyes moreover tease you.
and you,being helpless will just give the "w t f" faceee.
or who would just shoved you aside or throw tantrums at you fr no reasons?
or just give attitude and you feel like smacking that person hard on the face.
and watch them stumble and fall then bleed.
*sighs.
dont you people think staring is rude and rude is mean.
you'll hurt people.
big fat meanie!
why cant everyone live this wonderful life in peace and harmony uhh?
enjoy the moments living in this Earth before th end of time.
hm.

"so what if i aint as pretty as you, at least i have a face!"
apa tengok tengok bisik bisik?
bole datang cakap face to face kan?
tak yah nak mengumpat belakang orang ingat orang tak tau.
buat tambah dosaa sahajaa.
hmph!
perangai uh anakanak zaman sekarang!

um.
today was SUPER draggy and tiring nak mampos.
lessons were average.
THAT average that i feel so super lethargic during lessons (:
hah, still, i put up a fight with my ever so heavy eyelids that are forever
wanting to shut itself ;D
haha,obviously,i winnn!

and im so proud of myself today
for having to do 2 science practical at one day
WITHOUT being super blurrr nak mampos! (:

im supposed to do POA homework now tau.
but,hah,later.

ohhhh!
my school shoe convert religion uhh(:
now on th top of my right school shoe,theres like a red blot stain.
haha, i saw it and immediately turn to Azlin sayaang and said
"hah, my shoe da convert religion...to Hindi i think. is that a religion?"
haha, at least she smiled uh!
oke,sudah,lame.

today i love geography lesson.
well,i love every lesson with SOFIA AINI around (:

H:"go to hell!"
S:"go heaven!"
H"uh,yea.oke"
S:"ya,then you look below and see sofia suffer then cannot take it and jump down share sufferings together. then you jump down come to hell. haha,then the heaven people will shout,'STU-PID!' uh"
H:"haha,yeaaaaaa,tau tak per!"

its not funny here. but i swear th way she said it. . .hehhhhhh! :D

and another.
H:*points this ugly animal to sofia "this is sofia!"
S: "F YOU B*TCH!"

hahahah!
sofia and her stupid accent! xD

LOVES ;D

maybe my blog needs a new skin.
haha! (:

2009-04-17T21:33:00.006+08:00

i aint to get involved in foolish LOVE crimes.
i'm not here for your entertainment.

"when your life is currently living on life support.
and you can hardly breathe."

NATIONAL POLICE ANNUAL PARADE
WAS AWESOME! (:
me likey!
i'll upload photos soon.
when im not lazy and when you're lucky ;D

i had a great time with NADHILAH! FATHIAH! SHIREEN! (:
well, almost.
because we went separate ways thereafter.
*sighs.
but it was nice.
saw a couple of FIs during the HRC the other day. (:
"looking good eyy?"

ohhhhhhhh.
i publish this here before.
but i aint gonna care/mind posting this again.
as this serves the reason why i was at NPAP on Saturday :D

JURONGVILLE NPCC IS

A GOLD UNIT! ;D

i aint boasting about it,
but it is definately a 'something' to be proud of. ;D

backtracking.
remember.
all the happiness and sorrows we went through together.
all the misconceptions and the misunderstandings.
our MAJOR problem, MISCOMMUNICATION.
our tears, our hardwork, our pride our CCA.
th only NPCC graduates of year 2009. ;D
Cadet Leaders of 2008.
remember those punishments, scoldings lectures.
put downs dissapointment we have to bare to clinch a gold.
every single sweat, it was worthwhile.
we've made a stand, we've prove to others,
we are not just another ordinary 'no-quality' CCA.
but we are something. ;D
and we made history,
most importantly.
we gain experience and brotherhood.

I LOVE National Police Cadet Corps
more than i love my lifeee ;D

too bad, my journey as a cadet
ends as a Staff Sargent.
god knows how much i actually wants Station Inspector.
but,i wasnt the outstanding one.
someone else is more deserving.
well,obviously.
i never really shine.
heh, malu uhh! (oke,sofia sayang will get pissed) ;D
and will go like.
"see uh yo! lack of self esteem!"
haha, oke,so thats the remark i ALWAYS get everytime i
have no guts to answer or do stuffs
and she will push me forward.
haha,
yeap.
thats her, my true friend ;D

SOFIA AINI! (:

haha, hanna luffles sofiaaa! ;D
and thnks fr th maths tutoring! (:

school.
um.
above average.
apart from teachers forever throwing practise papers
and past years exam papers like funfair.
school is fun! ;D
a n w, i know teachers are doing so fr MY own benefit.
not that tehy have nothing better to do and they need
more stuff to mark. ;D

im doing AWESOMEly well at English! (:
i kindda Aceee my English Mock Exam.

im handling Higher Malay very well now. ;D
well,at least im trying.

mathematics.
not really a pain in the arse anymore.
well at times.
but the practices i did and mrs neo gave,
give me this sense of satisfaction
i have NEVER EVER FOREVER NEVER felt
in my whole entire life when i face mathematics.
oke,minus PSLE (:
i've been passing my maths test!
at least i failed one,and thats vectors.
*sighs.

combine humanities.
its pretty complicated actually.
shove THAT asideeee.

Science, physics and chemistry.
getting a hang on physics.
but chemistry.
i will work harder (:

whatelse, ummm.

Principles of Accounts.
i know,when my neighbours saw me wit th THICK book.
they'll go, "YOU TAKE ACCOUNTS?"
haha, but hey!
im doing well,
at least.
Correction Of Errors can bizz of la eh! ;D

Food&Nutrition.
my favourite.
but im SUPERRR SLACKING in the coursework ;D
haha,
push yrself thorugh ths hanna! (:

Mid years are just around th corner.
they are like playing BOO-CHAK
with me (:
kindda freak me out la oi.

but MID YEAR EXAMINATION,
i will pull myself together
and push myself through this (:
this is only the beginning hanna.
JYJY!
youuu can do it.
well obviously.

moreover i believe in
"miracles and big dreams come true as nothing is impossible."
andddd.
"have hope,faith and believe"
and to add to that.
"WORK A LITTLE MORE HARDER.
when you think you've work hard enough, work even harder"
and.
"pray to god (:"
oh,i love god i love allah (:

haha.
im gonna get some sleeeep now!(:

2009-04-15T21:46:00.004+08:00

check out my cheeks!
RED kan?
macam those anime characters yang blush. ;D
that was when i just complete HRC ;D
y'know,spending the whole dayy at Pulau Ubin.
i had fun though theres one part i got entangled at the cable, and i cried(?)
haha! ;D
i loves flying fox! ;D

i didnt attend school today.
damn you,fever!
seriously cant even get up.
and its like,this fever came suddenly.
one day i was super fine and the next
i keep sneezing and coughing.
my sister says,my tonsils are swollen.
like her,few years back.
is it really is swollen?
o m g uhh! D:

haha,new LOVE ;D
meet, Christofer Drew.

and now my another NEW love is
my guitar ;D
hehhh!
got a new one.
and im thinking of repairing my black onee. ;D
because it needs to get repaired or something?
haha,apa apa la ;D

IM DONE READING BREAKING DAWN!
FINALLY! ;D

afraid to get involved with
silly LOVE games.
im sorry,boy.
dont come to me.
i dont offer my heart anymore.

2009-04-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

"my lips articulate. my voice choked within"

"remain MUTE."

life's a game.
and a really good story

the end.

2009-04-06T20:06:00.003+08:00

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L O V E, what is in me
L O V E, oh if this isn’t love
L O V E, what is in me
LO V E, oh if this isn’t love

if this isnt love, Jennifer Hudson

"actually i am in love"
"art is perfection.perfection is love.love is art."

i cant stand your perfection.
as i stand back and admire.
i cant help myself but to wish.
wish you were mine.
take a step back.
and another.
then another.
followed by another step.
and i fall all th way back.
with your perfection.
and my flaws.
we two wont work well.
a line of girls.
and you.
what is it in me,
that will win your heart.
im not one of those girls,
you will fall in love with.
but still,im hoping.
though i know, i will meet disappointment.
so,i will stop.
stop looking for love.
because i still yearn for your perfection.
and im fall way too back.
for you to notice me.
for me to catch your attention.

"i think i am in love"

HRC is niceyyy nice nice! ;D
im tannn after spending th whole day in th sun at Pulau Ubin.
Pei Chye guyyy(sp?)
*DROOOOOLS

i tried Advanced Rope Elements,
and i got stuck at the cables.
my hand legs and whatever are all over the cables uhhh. ;D
completely entangled! ;D
i hang on to the ladder for tooo looong.
now my arms are superrrr numbbbb.
andddd i got bruised! D:

i tried the jump off th pole to catch this hanging thingy.
and th male instructor said "its good being small,you get to go first"
haha,
*I,instructor, H,me! ;D

I:"baca doa uh!"
H:"Doa apa sehh!"
I:"apa-apa, doa qunut?"
H:"bukan subuh sehh!"
I:"um,doa makan?"
H:"belum lagi nak makan!"
I:"tau doa panjat?"
H:"doa panjat? huh? tak tau? ada ke doa panjat? "
I:"ada, ikut saya baca ehh?"
H:"um,k."
I:"Bismillahirrahmannirrahim"
H:"Bismillahirrahmannirrahim"
I:"PAAAAAAAAAAN-JAAAAAAAT!"
H:"TSK! NONSENSE SEHHH!"

and when i come up,hang on th pole and got brought down
i kept of giggling and laughing uh.
then another male instructor was like.

I:"Macam mana perasaan awak lepas terjun?"
H:"uh? bole la,numbb,tak rasa apa apa"
I:"saya tengok awak kat atas macam ada benda kelakar. ada benda kelakar ke?"
H:"uh? tak ada la. kenapa?"
I:"awak macam ada penyakit pelik."
H:"penyakit pelik?"
I:"a'ahhh,awak tak berhenti-henti ketawa ajaaaa."
H:"hehhh! ehh? hahaha! da biasa laa."
I:"pelikkkkk!"

hahaha.

and i tried, Dangle Duo.
i dont know i was so super flexible that i can climp up logs so far apart! ;D
haha, DESPITE BEING SHORT!

anddd flying fox!
nice nice nice! ;D

"let me guess,your name has a 'Nur' in it."
"uhhh,not exactly,theres a Nurul actually"
"ye laa,same la,still 'Nur'"
"uh yeaa."
"relax, you look like as if you're trying to shake off the nervousness"
"uh? hah. how'd you know?"
"i just know"

hahaha.

ohh!
i got a trademark sign! ;D

\m/

ask thos peopleeeee! ;D
kan iLah kan?
kan aisha kan?
kan halidah kan?
hahaha. ;D

"stop it uh. tak mau perangai uh!"

i bake today!
POTATO SCONES! ;D
like those biscuits in Popeye! ;D
hahaha, and it was a success!
bringing some to school tmr kot ;D

2009-04-03T21:18:00.002+08:00

aku oke,aku bahagia.
aku CUN SAJA. ;D

aku kini damai bersama bintang.
yang membawa ku ke ruang angkasa.
bermain diantara bintang-bintang yang berkelipan.
kebahagiaan bagai mimpi.
mimpi yang terlalu indah.

kebahagiaan,
ku pohon.
jangan pergi dari aku lagi.
aku kini tenang.
kebahagiaan,
jangan biar duka membelenggu.
aku ingin gembira hingaa ke akhir masa.
kebahagiaan,
tak akan aku melepas kan mu.
kerana kau akan selalu ada dalam genggaman ku.

duka,
pergi dari hidup ku.
duka,
usah kembali lagi.
duka,
aku sudah bahagia.
tangisanku sudah tidak kedengaran lagi.
air mata ~~tidak~~ mengalir lagi.
aku sungguh gembira.
duka,
akan kau aku lepas kan.
sudah serik aku bersamamu.
sudah puas aku menemaniku.
duka,
ku pohon.
perginya engkau,
ketabahan akan datang.

Tuhan,
ujianmu,
tidak sedikit pun menggoncang keimanan ku.
namun,ia membuatku lebih tabah.
Tuhan,
aku telah temui hikmah,
diatas segala yang berlaku.
aku telah memulihkan persahabatan
yang telah terhambat kerana kepentingan diri
ku sendiri.
aku telah jumpa kebahagiaan sekali lagi.
dan aku tahu,kali ini.
aku sungguh bahagia.
Tuhan,
bahagiakan la dirinya,
seperti mana kau membahagiakan diriku ini.
temuikan la dirinya kepada kegembiraan.
Tuhan,
ku panjatkan doa ini.
untuk berterima kasih.
kerana engkau la,aku wujud di atas bumi yang engkau cipta
serba indah dengan ketabahan serta bahagia.
besertakan cinta,kasih dan sayang.

sesungguhnya.
onak berduri dan lautan api telah berjaya aku tempuhi.
sesungguhnya.
hidupku sudah kembali pulih.
sesungguhnya,
keperitanku sudah berakhir.

life is NOT a pain in th arse anymore.
life's been great.
really really GREAT.
and im not being sarcastic or what.
but life is niceeeeeeee. ;D

i was so happy a girl today.
and yes.
i laughed alot today.
like alot alot. ;D

hanna LOVES to main with Sofia and Wei Xiang
Hang Man/"Wheel Of Fortune" during maths lesson ;D
haha.
they really made my day.
seriously uhhhh. ;D

and i SMILED alot today.
;D

and now i feel like SMILING REALLY WIDEEE!
*GRINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNS ;D

im moving along strong now.
thnk you very much.
haha.

i went to school today telling the Grace Orchard incident
to sofia aini and aisha and nadhilah.
haha.
and suddenly i feel super offended D:
haha, its oke aunty, i forgive you.

told Reee and he was like super kecohhhhhhhh uh.
haha
stop it uh with
"student dari Grace Orachrd School uhhhh!"
andddd
"kau bukan macam ada learning disabilities, kau da memang da!"

haha,
stop it la.
tak mo perangai uhhh! ;D

i have HRC tmr!
High Ropes Challenge.
y'know stuffs like jumping diwn a 7 storey building on a cable.
haha and climb herre and there.
i get to be SUPERWOMAN uhhh! ;D
and i want to screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam my lungs out.
when i jump down.
haha,all out uhh hanna! ;D

and i have to report to school at 6:45 am! ;D
and the thing ends at 6:30pm? ;D
haha.
YAY!
pulau ubin lagi! ;D
hahahaha
me likeyy!

and i seriously need some sleep ;D
because esok i need to wake up at FIVE THIRTY EEEHH EMMMM tmr uhhh! ;D
hahahah!
omigoshhhhy ;D

*SPAZZESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! ;D

"we'll make things better for both of us.
we will be best friends.
but dont expect more.
and im very sorry
for whatever i did to you in th past.
and am glad that you and i are friends"

"aku dissapointed ngan kau.
i though you wont at all be influenced.
but i thought wrong.
you are same like th others.
you did that just to be cool.
and you can even do it infront of me?
when once you told me,you hate this group of people.
and you know how i hate those things.
cuba sekali,aku tak nak cuba lagi.
and you did it infront of my freaking eyes.
the temptation the urge to try it again.
tak moh nak perangai uh pat sini.
kau aku kawan sehhh.
anddd kau buat ini semua pikir cool ke pa?
musnahkan diri sendiri ada la.
stop it uhhh.
jangan perangai uhhh."

2009-04-02T19:04:00.002+08:00

you just play along with the game.
though you have not a single idea of what is
LOVE.

i went to MacDonald with sofia aini and sherra.
and i hadddd a hell loads of timeee together lauging uhh! ;D
sherra want a wedding with butterflies and spiders with monkeys.
haha. ;D

i went home.
at th 335 bus stop near Grace Orchard.
and people was looking at me like im some kind of freak?
haha,i swear i was looking at th mirror countless times.
then this auntie approached me.
and talk.
lets call her A and im H k? ;D

A: hows school?
H:er,fine?
A:New school?
H:huh? no. we will be changing next year? to the old boon lay secondary there.
A:huh? thats yr new school right? *points to Grace Orchard School.
H:what? err. no!
A:then what school yoo from?
H:um,Jurongville.
A:ohhh,im so so sorry. i thought you went to school there.
H:haha. oh,its oke.

w t h?
do i look like a Grace Orchard Student.
i mean.
my school uniform dont look anything like that school uhh.
haha.
stop it uh with Grace Orchard school uhhh! ;D

tmr.
the JVCB people are off for SYF.
and i wish them ALL TH BEST! ;D
hahahaha.
good luck people! ;D

i seriously dont know what to blog now uh.
my sister is telling me a story.
and laughing her ass off.
dengan SEMANGAT NYA!
and here i am,not really listening to her.
and just grinning.
haha,she looks stupid.
oh.
she realise she does look stupiddd ;D

haha,oke.
toodles people.

2009-04-01T20:54:00.003+08:00

in life.
you either live it.
or
you leave it.

then you die.
well, at least you do.
soon.

"But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause i can't break it to my heart"
-i cant break it to my heart, delta goodrem

lifes been kindda nice today.
theres change of sitting arragement.
i swear im gonna miss sofia aini.
but i have to live with it.
im sitting with Clar and Jaryl. ;D
hahaha.
Jaryl lagii,da macam last year ;D
but its oke.
changes are nice.

did i tell yooo?
last saturday was my sajak competition thingyy. ;D
though we didnt win.
i hadddd loadssss of funn with th casts and crew ;D
so thnks.
hunny(!!), norryn(!!),aini(!), ismail(!), ridzuan(!), akif(!), ahmad(!)
and my super girls.
azlin(!!) anddddd nadhirah(!!)
hehhh.
sayaaaang kamu orang semuaaaa ;D
i know you people miss those times we spend together as a TEAM.
but every good things,will come to an end.
one day.
soon.

ohhh,its that time of th month.
and im so so so sure.
im so gonna have mood swings.
so im sorry if i will just snap at yoo for no apparent reason ;D
haha.
im being moody nowdays.

ohhh!
its april fools today!
and i got trick-ed/prank-ed
eleven time.
despite shouting, "jokeee da basii uhhh!"
gazillions of times!
haha,i still fall fr it. ;D
hanna,hanna.

good news oi! ;D
i passed my Physics test on Static Electricity and i d k another chapter,but on electricity jugaaak.
14/25 oi! ;D
hahaha.
aku bangga sangat!

life is evil.
ironically.
people live it to th fullest.

2009-03-30T19:53:00.002+08:00

life is a downturn.
and life is a disappointment nowadays.
i just dont know why.

i dont really enjoy life.
nor do i really hate life.
im just a little confused.

but today.
my girlfriends.
namely nadhirah sayang and azlin B. ;D
i had a hell load of fun laughing non stop.
jokes and sarcasm.
haha,every single moment.
i love it.
so today.
i find out thr reason why im still living with a life.

i aint getting emo, no.
i just need some time to myself.
i dont talk too much and that alot in school.
unlike last time.
well, if you have noticed.
maybe sofia will feel lonely(?)
and she will miss my voice even fr a second.
kan?
haha,but most of th time.
im just thinking.
and wondering.
and reflecting.
and stuff like that.

still,at times.
life wont really go my way.
and it will be one hell of a roller coaster ride.

i just landed rock bottom in life.
so many things to think about.

"jealousy is inevitable"

i aint going to go crazy if people
have got their life went their way
each and every time.
or maybe most of th time.
and i aint gonna scream for some reasons in
not,and never going to state here.

at this point of time.
i just feel like i want to be left alone
but at th same time i want company.

i badddly want time alone with sofia aini.
to let out everything to her.

i really want time with nadhirah
to cry my hearts out.

i yearn for azlin to
laugh my ass off and i know
kita cute kecilkecil ;D

and i reallyreally miss nadhilah.
talking her letting out everything to her.

girlfriends.
that is the reason you
have a mening to live yr life
no matter how life's
been an arse to you.

all th long i just want to watch you happy.
even from far.
could you please try to understand me?

a little time alone.
a HUGE getaway from life.

2009-03-24T19:13:00.002+08:00

this is life.

you live your life.

live it to th fullest.

the you'll die.

today.
its a long long long day.

im falling sick.
veryveryveryveryvery sick soon.

but im gonna fight it.
im strong.
i know.

life has been crazy shit ass nowadays.
everyday.
i see people get hurt.
i see people shed tears.
happiness snatched away from people.
sorrow grip tight.
i dont like it now.

and my life.
its hell.

end of story.

the end.

2009-03-19T19:34:00.004+08:00

"Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate friendship."
- Cicero

"Advice is like snow; the softer it falls, the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind."
- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"Truth and tears clear the way to a deep and lasting friendship."

"True friendship is never serene."
- Mariede Svign

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

and this are my darlingggs and my strength in life.

"The mildest, drowsiest sister has been known to turn tiger if her sibling is in trouble."
~Clara Ortega

"When mom and dad don't understand, a sister always will. "
~Author, Unknown

"To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters. We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys. We live outside the touch of time."
~Clara Ortega

"A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost. "
~Marion C. Garretty

"Our siblings. They resemble us just enough to make all their differences confusing, and no matter what we choose to make of this, we are cast in relation to them our whole lives long. " ~Susan Scarf Merrell

the reason i live through each day with tears which turns to laughters.
the one who will listen and never judge me.
the one who is faithful and with this tie, we will forever be in love.

hahhhhhh.
thats a good start huhhh? ;D

ohhhh.
and fr yr infoooo.
i aint replying tags.
haha.
why?
easy.
lazyyy uhhh!
so therefore,
in any cae of you tagging, i will either reply tag
through yr blog's tagboard/comment thingy,whichever.
and if you ddont have a blog or your link doesnt work or does not even exist
then i MIGHT reply it through my blog.
BLOG POST.
haha.
hm.
i think i will put this down on my tagboard thingy ;D

haha.
my sister just said this.
like a minute agoooo ;D

"i dont think i can treat you to Burger King.
But one day.
i promise. i PROMISE,
i will get you one BIG tubb of BEN&JERRY'S ice creaaaaaam!"

hahaha!
yessssssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaa! ;D
i hope its any flavour i want mannn!
i have a niceee sister.
i promise i wont hate her and treat her like an irritant in my life.
haha.
syarifah syazanatul aisyah!
you ROCK like assssssss! ;D

haha.
ohhhhh!
and tmr MYOB course will be th lassssssssst!
tmr will be the exam.
anddd im so praying hard i can get a distinction ;D
haha
then baru worth my mooneyyy! ;D

i miss some of my girlfriends alrd D:
especially.
Nadhirah,Azlin and Nadhilah.
haha, i dont miss SOFIA AINI because i see her every day.
sampai naik mual.
chehhhhhhh!
no laaa ;D
haha.
at least shes the reason why i drag out of bed every morning during this holidays.
and attend the MYOB thingyyy! ;D

like Sofia said.

"with Hanna ard, i couldnt ask for more."

so i shall say.

"with Sofia ard, what more could i ask for?"

anddddd.

tonight is malam jumaat.
also known as friday night(?)
um.
malay myth says that friday nights are like "forboding(?)"
i shall say?
hah.
so.
now im off to watch K-Nite.
and thereafter i wanna watch some ghost story Keliwon.
haha, i swear i have no idea what Keliwon is.
ANDDDDDDD! ;D
FINALLY!
AT MIDNIGHT!
im gonna listen to MJ12! ;D
haha.
and theres Friday Night Special todayyy!
im hoping it would be an audio clip! ;D
haha!

im done!

SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA FTW! ;D

2009-03-18T10:17:00.001+08:00

though many words are left unsaid
and things left undone,

the moment you left,it all felt confusin.g
i dont like it when you shrugged and walk away.
with my questions left unanswered.

and i know, you are dissapointed

im in schoool!

holidays.
hah.
wouldnt even call it a holidayy.
when i cant have fun.
or at least take a break from school.
where does the true meaning of holidays go to?
*sighsssssssssssssssssss!

th MYOB workshop, not bad.
i dont really see a point for a full 3 days course.
its 9am to 5 pm mind you eh.
seriously.
maybe a full 2 day course plus half day of exam la.
the software, its like computer generated like totally.
all you have to do is key in all those data/information
and the rest, its all up to the computer.
oh, it also depends on your understanding and whatsoever.

i think
i have some kind of super power
haha
oke
i shall say
special abilities.
haha.
my sister says so la

i have the ability to,
enable someone who cant sleep, sleep by them, watching me sleep.
haha.
my sister said it happen to her 2 times.
where she cant sleep,and she stare at me sleeping.
and all she knows,shes at dreamland.
cool kan?
haha.

on Saturday, me and my sister slept at ard 3am?
haha, we were talking and fooling ard and joking ard.
haha,

"terjun, golek-golek" ehh aisyahhh.
haha.

we are practicing our english.
so we kept on spatting bombasting english words to each other uh.
haha, i dint know my siter have a wide variety of vocabulary.
only that she doesnt know how to use them appropriately.
haha.

then on Mondayyyyyyy,
me and my sister watch some ghost story.
like theres 3 stories within 2 hours.
because we planned to hear MJ12 at th radioo.
its like a segment in th radio where you hear all
those paranormal thingy.
haha
just for the fun of scraing ourselves to death by the storyyy! ;D
the 3 stories right,its all about ghost under water la.
then my sister was like, "might as well put name WATER instead of BLACK NIGHT"
haha.
then i was like "if its called WATER people will think that its some kind of stupid documentry
on Water. H2O."
haha,stupid kaaaan?
yeaaaa.
veryveryvery stupidddd.

did i tell you.
i maneged to get ECLIPSE and BREAKING DAWN?!
ohhhhhemmmmmmgeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
haha.
like finally i got hold of these two books uh.
i've been yearning for this books la.
daaaa!
da complete da Twilight Saga aku.
maybe,i can place them next to my Harry Potter series.
haha.
this is sooooooo much better than all the other books i've readddd.
especially Harry Potter.
and those Chick Flicks that i seriously got myself addicted to.
so now.
im ALMOST done with Eclipse.
haha.
its nice.

and i envy Bella.
because she can love Edward forever
and Edward really loves her.
and Edward wont ever leave her because Edward can live forever.
AWWWWWWWE~
and reading ECLIPSE hurts. =X
sofiaaaaa knows whyyy!
kankankan?

OH!
i see SOFIA AINI bloggingggg
and the class is so kecohhh.
*sighssssss
we are SO DONE with today's session
but we cant go home yet because the trainer wont allow.
how devastating is that? ;D
haha, oke. no.
stop it hanna. xD

i missss someone.
awwe~
its alrd a sad thing i cant sms him because his bill is high.
and now, my only sms companion is either Sofia aini,
or Amiruuul or Amiraaah etc.
different day,different people. ;D
haha and at times my phone gets lonely.
no sms camee in or something.
haha ;D
D:
bilaaaa ni.
haha,i cnt wait until that day of the month. ;D

"I am restless, and I keep trembling
Everyone watch me as I descend
Into a feeling that's overwhelming me
I finally stopped, stopped making sense"

Run Dont Walk,Hey Monday

and im SO DONE HERE!

2009-03-12T17:43:00.003+08:00

Before i start anything...

Faith is the light that guides you through th darkness.
love hurts.
but there is always a reason for everything that happen.
cliche,i know.
but,you see.
god's testing on yr faith.
and he is testing your patience.
girl, i heard those stories.
and i think you had enough. you are hanging on th wire.
between falling or pull yourself back up.
he is treating you like ass shit.
though love,sometimes makes you do stupid things,
he is not in any right position to do this stuffs to you.
i aint poking my nose into yr private life,no.
but to hear all those happening to my best friend,
how does that makes me feel?
how does that makes me feel about you?
i feel sorry for you,
im superrr pissed with him
and god knows how much i want to go up to him and smack his face.
and say, "YOU DONT AT ALL DESERVE THE LOVE FROM MY BESTFRIEND. you give her shits and you expect her to give you her love when she already does. ALL HER LOVE, and you still do NOT feel it. what are you? a mannequin?"
this is pass and parcel of life or whatever you call it.
live by this, like me,
"have hope, faith and believe"
i pray that you will grow stronger with every passing day.
i hope that your heart that bleeds everyday, will eventually stop.

&you know how pathetic i can be when i give advices.
but i will lend a listening ear.
i will try to give advices.
if that will make you feel better.
for, i speak through experiences.

just so you know,B.

I'll be right here where you need me
Anytime just keep believing
And I'll be right here
If you ever need a friend
Someone to care and understand
I'll be right here

All you have to do is call my name
No matter how close or far away
Ask me once and I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear

All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside I'm right here
Isn't it great that you know that
I'm ready to go wherever you're at
Anywhere
I'll be there

All you have to do is call my name
No matter how close or far away
Ask me once and I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear
All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside I'm right here
Whenever you need me

There's no need to worry
You know that
I'm gonna be
Right here
Ask me once and
I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear
All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside
I'm right here
Oh yeah yeah
I'm right here

;Right Here,Miley Cyrus

you are not alone,B.
you have me,us.

P.S. if you cant take it any longer.
an all you feel like doing is cry.
just burst.
tears,they dry on its own.
though your heart will hurt,tear and bleeds.
tears,they do heal wounds.
but the pain, god knows.
have hope faith and believe.
i will pray.

my little girl/B.

i hate it.
i hate to see my girlfriends having happiness snatched away from them.
it tears me up inside.
stay strong girls.
you will pull through.

andddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
ms SOFIA aini taught me a new value in life this three days.
"The more the person HATES you, the more you should LOVE the person."
and her reason?
simple.
"i found out its a burden to hate,so i shall stick to love"
so, im going to practice that.
hah.

and toady.
during lunch, i got s super pissed.
theres this tables and chairs outside the canteen and a group of girls sat there.
and me and sofia were in th canteen,eating.
behind us were a group of boys.
and they are throwing like stones or bubblegum rolled to a ball or plasticine, i d k.
but while they are throwing one hit sofia's head. another hit mine.
but what im totally pissed it.
one of th girls threw one and landed on my bowl that i JUST started eating.
JUST tauuu.
god knows how pissed i am.
Kindda told them off,nadhirah did too.
but i was superrr pissed to talk that i just stomped off.
abd whats up with "marah sangat nampak"
HEY!
its MY FOOD MY MONEY MY LUNCH.
who th heck are you to bother me.
you can settle your own business outside canteen kan?
tak payah nak campak campak bendabenda ni semua.
kalau nak campak campak uh kat luar canteen ke apa ke
bila near each other
abe bila da kena orang tak tau nak cakap sorry.
perangai jangan macam sial la please.
korang are like just sec 1.
at least have some courage to say sorry or something.
ni tidak, i must go there to tell you to say sorry.
if you can respect your own friends.
what makes it so difficult to respect your school mates?
think it over.
you people are forgiven a n w.
just dont do it again.

ughhhhhhhhhhhh!

tmr.
is th last day of th term
but it aint th beginning of holidays.
because as i said my holidays,
are so jam packed with activities.
one after another! ;D
haha.
but its life.
and i love it.
and since its th last day of th term
im going to spend some times with my girlfriends.
namely.
SOFIA aini and AMIRAH. ;D
its been a while since we go out together ;D
haha, esok yea babes! ;D
hahaa!

at least there is something to look forward to.
im done for today! ;D

2009-03-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

ohh hanna,
please grow taller. D:
ohh goddd,
please,i beg you.
please make me taller.
i dont mind if to you taller is just one inch.
just make me taller.

haha.

you,
im sorry for whatever shits i say/wrote.
that one way or another hurt you,or make you look baddd or whatever.
you know me since forever, i really go by emotions.
so,im sorryy.
and i know this looks/sounds pathetic.

hah.
like the person will read this post anw.
still, at least im really am sorry.

this week and weeks to go by.
it is tiring.
very tiring.
the Sajak thing.
well,at least we are on the right track.
and im not really sure of th pace we are going by now is fine.
but i will pray so that it will all go real smoothly.

anyone free on th 28th? ;D

heyy!
who would have expected.
the guitar i bought like on october(?)
is finally put to good use.
haha, yes.
i've start playing it since weeks ago. ;D
haha, and i will be lying if i were to say its fine.
because my fingers are now screaming at me.
but its for a start.
at least now, i know notes on guitar and how to strum
rather than just strumming randomly. ;D
im so proud of myselffff! ;D
*BEAMMMMMMMMMMS WIDEEEEEEEEEEEELY!

and now,
i want a thinner guitar pick.
is it thinner?
is that the term you use?
haha! ;D
someone called me a guitar geek when i asked him.
"ehhh, does my guitar needs tuning?"
haha.
nonsense la kau.
and stop it with "sekali ketik sepuluh yang datang tau!"
very th irritating la.

yea, and since dear me cant go to shops and buy one decent pick.
i should maybe stick to mine i d k-what-happen-to-my-pick, pick.
and seriously, my guitar needs tuning,like right now.
haha, because it now sound very funny.
after i hit th headstock to my window pane.
haha, careless ehhhh.
and im so proud of myself that now i can play candles on my guitar ;D
haha, well almost perfect eh.
maklum la,budak baru belajar.
and why am i boasting about guitar here? ;D

a n w.
i miss talking to some people.
after all this life shits that happen to me,
i realise how i actually ignored them
and i really have LOADS to catch up on.

i miss talking to A.
though i see you everyday in school.
i miss talking to U.
thought we just chat online only.
but i miss talking to you and laughing.
i miss talking to S.
and i seriously want to meet you again.
maybe go out for lunch or something. :D
(i cant put names or they'll scream at me,haha.weird friends huh?)

hmmmm,i suddenly have th craving to eat TWIX.
haha,its been awhile since i consume chocolates.
padahal ada two boxes waiting for me in front of my eyes now. ;D
haha.
nahhh,save it for days i really need chocolates.

um,
i hope it rain tonight.
yes,i really really want it to rain with thunder and lightning.
it makes my night sleepless.
so i can stay up and listen to MJ12.
its Misteri Jam 12 b t w.
haha.
its all those supernatural stories you hear on th radio.
haha.
i've missed loads of MJ12 recently.
;D

i serious ly want to work up on my stamina.
and i want to do well in 2.4 which is like just around th corner.
haha,i baddddddddly want a GOLD this year for NAPHA(?)
alaaa~
th fitness thingy la. ;D
haha.

and now i wonder, why am i ranting random shits?
haha.

oh~
and this week is th last week of schoool! ;D
haha, and just when i though i can set dates for group studys.
i remembered i got MYOB workshop.
danggggg!
there goes my holidaysss. D:
im a sadsad miserable girl.
if not fr th 160 bucks.
i think i will skipskipskip th wokshop.
still,
on a lighter note.
i think i can benefit from this workshop.
and thats why im going to have full attendance
for this workshop.
haha, spoken like a true dedicated girl to accounting.
chehhh!
padahal,padahal. ;D

oke,its 2230hrs alrdddd.
haha, 10:30pm uhhhh.
im offf. ;D

i cant help but to think of youu.
crush?

2009-03-09T18:36:00.004+08:00

i aint talking about you,no.
im not here for your entertaiment

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin', '
Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin'
to a love like what we got.

Ohhh,

baby... I know sometimes It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...

[What happened to workin' it out].

We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.
So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin'
to a love like what we got.

Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.
Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

;Mad- Ne-yo

this post.
i will dedicate to my darlings.
the reason my faith is so strong,and th reason i pull through.
and who is going through hard times.
the moment i free myself from guilt and heart break.
they are infact, the reason i made it through my hardtimes.
this is for you girls.
you know who you are.
buzz off if you cnt take long talks like your parents will give and you cant spare cliches

at least, you did talk to me.
and at least, you know whats wrong.
i hope you will get better.
i pray you will grow stronger.
with every single tears you shed.
this is life.
sometimes, it sucks.
sometimes,it just go your way.
but whats life without challenges and problems?
whats life when everything go so perfectly?
take this as a learning point in life.
for if you choose to take it positively.
you will get over it.
you will recover from setbacks and ass shits in your life.
life,it can never be perfect.
life,takes great courage to face.
and this point of time.
then you realise.
which is good and which is bad.
who is trustworthy and
who is just behind you waiting to laugh when you fall.
humans.
they cant escape from jealousy and hatred.
they cant watch another succeed.
with all might, at least some will try to bring you down.
i beg
you to be strong.
dont let their actions and words pull you down.
for your effort and hard work had made you come this far.
and to see it all crumble down.
it will be a waste.
im sorry,im one of those humans who wants to pull you down.
but at times.
its true
and at times,you just cant help yourself but to agree.
to think it all over.
you are in fact.
part of m life.
and my world, it revolves around you.
without you, life,means nothing.
remember.
humans, live to judge.
and humans lived to be judge.
but its up to you.
to either change their judgement towards you 360.
or just let it be,until one day
they realise.
you are, infact better off then judging you as it made you
a much better person.
im here.
and i will always be.
i wont push you down to the ground.
cry no more,baby.
it hurts to see you in so much pain.
pull through.
remember those wrds you said to me when i am going through hard times.
i love you.
and i will always do.

♥SOFIA aini

sayang,
i know the whole year without him, it hurts.
and it still does.
and i know those 3 months.
are the best days of your life.
and i know.
thinking of him.
will at times cure your pain.
and at times it hurts so much that you'd die.
i remember how you used to be so happy with him.
and i perfectly remember how crushed you were when it all ends.
you think of him everyday.
you were ever so concern of him eventhough he isnt a part of your life anymore.
you are a strong girl.
you will have to get over him one day.
you will have to learn to accept fate that he isnt meant to be yours.
if he really deserves you, give him another chance to prove himself.
another chance to redeem himself.
though i know its not easy,to accept th reason for yr pain through out this years.
i know,sayang.
the feeling.
that feeling you are telling me about.
the feeling you cant shake off.
and th more you think of him.
the more it hurts.
but you just want to think of him because at times you could feel
his presence so near you.
nothing could offset that feeling,sayang.
just have faith, stay strong.
hold on.
i wont leave you,ever.
because you have always been there to hear my cries.
and you have always been there to save me when i fall
into darkness.
you,my savior, my sayang, my girlfriend,
are th most strongest person i've ever met,
in my whole entire life.
keep holding on,sayang.

♥nurNADHIRAH

MY HUGE PART OF MY LIFE!
syarifah syazanatul aisyah.
just so you know.
i have never grown tired of your little stories
you tell me every single day you come home from school.
they just add on spice with my life.
and i love to listen to your whines,cries troubles and doubts.
when you just come home,open th room door and say
"aku benci uhhhh si (_______)"
or
"i hate today!"
and it hurts when you come home and say.
"i cried to day in school, i cant take it anymore"
and seeing you come home woth a smile and say
"i LOVE today"
which you seldom do.
your little stories.
are just little tiny bits of pieces of life that keep me going on strong.
remember my dear sister,
those people who hates you.
who calls you names.
who backstabs you.
who just wouldnt put their nosy noses into your life.
they are envious of you.
they just want to watch you go down,down,down,down.
and eveytime you tell me this person says your ugly or you suck like babi shit,
i feel like smacking their faces.
you are my sister.
THEY DONT KNOW YOU THEY WAY I KNOW YOU!
who are they to judge you uh?
though at times i just tell you to shut it when you are telling your stories.
or at times i just say you suck, and i hate you and get a life and back off life stalker.
i just meant th other way round.
i want to say how much i really love you and how much i care fr you.
but i dont know how to put it to words.
because YOU,little girl
cant take mushy stuffs.
and come on!
which sister gave their older sister who is sitting 10 metres away from you 5 seconds to
kiss you?
and hug you?
call me being over protective.
but i have known you since your first blink on earth.
at night,when you are asleep and i watch you how peaceful you sleep.
i just pray that God wont take you away from me.
because i cant part from you.
remember sister,
ignore whatever bull shits they say about you.
you know yrself better than they do.
prove them that you are not the kind of girl they go ard judging and putting you down.
prove them wrong.
you are what you are.
sister,
no words can describe how i owe my whole life to you.
the nights you try to keep awake to listen to my cries.
the times you pat my back and say "its oke hanna."
and the times you turn my problems to jokes.
you are the reason i become this strong and have come this far.
and i love you for that.
iloveyou syarifah syazanatul aisyah.

♥Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyahh

im not being just nice.
i just hate seeing happiness snatched away from them.

2009-03-08T18:56:00.003+08:00

i havent fall,
neither have i stumble.
i have yet to falter.
and did not even stutter.
losing you, have not make me even an inch weaker.
instead,it makes me much stronger of a person
i think i could not be.
much stronger that you think i am.

th SECONDARY ONE NPCC ANNUAL CAMPP was niceeeeee.
well,at least i hadd my bit of funn.
eeventhough part of th campp i was not really happy withh.
but whats done is DONE,so over.
ohhh, did i tell youuu?
my best friend, there the picture on top
planned it.
with th help of her ACC.
GOOD JOB WELL DONE! ;D
or like Ma'am Shafira sayss hers.
"GOOD DONE WELL JOB!"
good done well job eh?
haha.

you,i need to talk to you.
people are talking about you.
but i dont know if you seem to realise.
people, including me.
i dont know who is changing now.
you,me or others?
just so you know.
if you happen to look behind you,
a bunch of people who
don't-really-like-you are just following you around.
waiting for you to stumble and fall.
i dont like to see you so.
talk to me,at least? D:

anw, the camppp was really really tiringgg.
imagine less than 2 hours of sleep.
and th next day,endless activity.
hah,i thought th camp would never enddd.
haha, well it does.
i was SO FREAKING tiredddd,that
the moment i reach home,i took a bath(LIKE FINALLY! a decent bath!)
get changed and slept!
haha.
it was ard 7:45 thennn, i was tireddddddddddddddddd.
and i only woke up at 09:30am!
haha, an almost 14 hours of sleep! ;D
well,at least that made up my lost of sleep due to campp.
haha!

suddenly i have this urge to go karaoke.
haha, any takers? ;D

tmr,it will be mondayy.
i hope i wont get those draggggggy monday blues.
andd tmrs lesson will last until 2:15.
EVEN more draggyyy. D:
but i hope otherwise.
yes,im counting on you grilfriends.
and maybe all those people who i meet anywhere,everywhere.
ohhh!
and my start of th day.
THAT,im really counting on it!
haha,because baddd start to th day equals to badddd mood and equals to baddd day.
and i hate baddd days. D:
because it really sucks.
and i just feel like throwing tantrums.
haha,and th victim will be miss SOFIA aini.

Thursday night, it rained real heavily.
with lighting and thunder.
i cant sleep, as raindrops falling, sounded like rocks.
lighting,flashed like lighting up th night sky.
thunder roared and my heart starts to beat fast.
i WAS scareddd, real scaredd.
then i remember how i use to be not scared of this anymore,when i was with you.
your comforts and you voice.
like you were protecting me from the world.
the rain, triggers th memory of you.
that night, reminds me of you.
that moment, made me realise how i really miss you.
that second, made me cry.

when you wear your heart on your sleeves.

2009-03-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

sandiwarakah selama ini
setelah sekian lama kita telah bersama

inikah akhir cerita cinta
yang sekalu aku banggakan
didepan mereka

entah dimana
kusembunyikan rasa malu
kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku
tanpa dirimu lagi

biarkan kini ku berdiri
melawan waktuku
untuk melupakanmu
walau sakit hatiku
namun aku bertahan

-Akhir Cerita Cinta; Glenn Fredly

today.
it was th thirdd day of ~~Geek~~ GIG WEEK.
haha, oke whichever it is called.
anw,its just a wholee week of performances during recess ;D
andddddd yes.
im one of them who were singing with Nadhirah,Azlin and Sofia.
and I THINK we did a pretty sweet/nice/good jobbb.
haha ;D
i was super nervousssss i tell you! ;D
i was shaking all all this butterflies in my stomach and all those sort.
but it overcame it,somehow.
haha. ;D
i likee the performance.
ohhh, and th performance after us, Adila and Asyqin.
damnnn,they're good ;D
haha.

a n w.
lifes a boreeee recently.
its the same routine every singlee day.
well,almost.
haha.
but at least im learning and studying and gaining knowledge.
ohhh,and see my darlinggs and o things together.

im looking forward for this Friday's NPCC camppp.
its a sec one camp.
something like orientation camp.
haha, yeaaaaa.
thats the ONLY thing i look forward to this week.
and the week after.
it will be a sesi raptai.
something like Technical Rehearsal, on th Sajak Competition.
haha,
another "butterflies-and-all-other-creepy-crawlies-reproducing-in-my-stomach issue! ;D
funny when i think of it.
when i want to do something like on stage or maybe to just a group of people.
i will get so super nervous, and after it all or maybe halfway through it, i really really enjoyed myself.
like every moment of it, well, except for being nervous.
which leads me to wonder.
is my self-esteem THAT low? ;D
haha,or maybe im just shyyy. (chehhh,step!)
and wonder again, when exactly can i overcome stage frights? ;D
WHEEN?
because this feeling irritates me,like alot alot.

other than life in school.
im moving on quite well.
well,at least im moving, better than giving up on this whole
moving on thinggg.
it just sound so,silly.
all this shits, are way backkkk,at the back of my headdd.
maybe a moment or two,they will just hit play.
and all the memories will go by like a catching a movie.
and after that,it all fadess.
just waiting for th next time to play those memories again when i allow it to.
i dont want yesterday, ANYMORE.

it will take my whole life to forget this sequel of love,
though i have this feeling of wanting you away from me when you're close.
and close to me when you're away.

anddd thats thaaaat! xD

2009-02-25T18:50:00.004+08:00

first,
i dont know why.
but Lucky, as in the song lucky, NEVER FAIL to make me smile everytime i hear it.
and i feel like skipping and beaming my heart out.
shouting, "HEY! IM OKE NOW!" to the world.
um,how i wish that would happen.
well, it will someday.
BUT not alone or people will think im crazy or something else.
or,maybe i will.

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

-LUCKY, Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

OH!
and as promised.

THANKS HUNNY FOR TH CHIPS MORE COOKIES! ;D

lain kali aku pulaaa belanjee korang semuaaa.
tunggu ajaaa!
haha!

did i tell you how i love to stay back for a while after school
to discuss on sajaaaak.
and talk about all malay inspirations andd uh, malay words.
flood the whole floor with bombastic malay words.
haha! ;D
Nadhirah, Azlin,Norryn and Hunny. (:

yesterday.
my group and three others went to Thong Keng Home Blue Cross (whichever the name la)
its across th street from my school.
haha.
i had fun.
oke.
LOADS of funnn!
i love my some what buddy!
Lee Keok Leong, i think.
haha.
and before him, Simon.
but he went to Sofia after that.
my buddy cuteeee gilaaaaaaaaaaaa! ;D
i ask him questions then later he will answer.
"TWO!"
ngan the peace sign sekali, macam proud gituu!
haha!
he loves number two,i think.
and he loves to count and smileeee widelyy.
well, at least he made me laugh.
and fill up my time there.
and i still keep his 'masterpiece' and the rest colouring worksheets. ;D
ohhh, and my buddy.
he loves to draw lines.
maybe i should scan it and put it upp here. ;D
yeap,lineees.
loads and loads of lines.
then i ask him to draw circle.
so i drew one on his paper, but he drew lines on it instead then grin at me.
haha,cute kan?
then i draw another.
he did th same.
then laugh.
haha.
um,now im wondering if he really loves lines,or like to tease me or just irritate me,in a nice way.
haha. ;D
i miss him alrd.
haha.

it was raining.
kindda heavily.
since my EZ-LINK card for some reason throw tantrums at me.
i decide to walk home.
something i swore myself not to do until th time is right.
also i did something i swore not to do on monday too.
i think its monday, yes,monday.

sick of choking back tears.
somehow, i just burst into tears.
still, i cant find another alternative.
thnks whoever who is there. (:

oke.
as i was saying.
i swore myself i wont walk home via 'that route' until im ready
or the time is right.
well,its for my own good kan? (:

but i still did it.
it was nice.
walking in the rain.
feeling the rain on my skin.
the soothing feeling,
that satisfy my urge to just wash away,
drain all the memories i haddd there,and then.
since th path,it was quiet.
and the rain,was heavy.
i just walk,thinking, reminiscing.
and suddenly it all rolls down.
but it stopped eventually.
i knew,somehow,deep inside.
i have to move on.
i have to seek my own happiness.
i have to forget every single piece of memory of him i have with me.
well except for his name and existance in this world.

somehow,maybe, he wants me to be happy and move on.
maybe he hates to see me hurt and stuff.
hey,i hope you're doing fine.
because i am.
and im sorry for whatever i post about you.
you know how i lose myself to emotions,right?
im sorry.

and surprisingly.
after all those.
i feel so light-hearted.
oh and tiredddd! ;D
the moment im home,bathed and changed.
i crashed to my bedd and slept.
haha eventhough its 5 plus alrd! ;D
and woke up ard seven(?)
haha!

leave it all behind.
move along.

2009-02-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

today.
um.
it was nice. ;D

started off the day by going to Jurong Point with
Nadhirah,Nadhilah,Sofia.
haha,kita ni plan nak jumpa at 9:30 am tau!
ye ye ajaaa!
abeh sekali.
this girl over here,woke up at 9:30 am!
haha!
siapsiap and stuffs.
met them at MACDONALDS! :D
i kindda got lost when i went in Jurong Point.
because i got kindda confuse where is the new and where is the old building
and how to get to th old building andd all.
so it like hunting for MACD at Jurong Point.
search for Azlin's birthday present.
and met Aini after that. ;D

we then head to Chinese garden after buying pizzas. ;D
and while waiting for Khairul, Hafiz and Fathil,
me and Nadhirah played the guitar.
while th rest did th present.
k,most of th time i was stuck to mine.
haha ;D
it rained.
and me and nadhirah actually played on the rain! :D
haha. it was FUN!
while waiting for Azlin, kita gi ambil gambar nonsense and all.
overall, celebration was great.

i just came back from SGH.
i accompanied my grand mother there after the celebration.
went home and changed and siap siap and stuffs like that ;D
it was nice.
just me and my grandmother. :D
it was kindda boring since we were there for almost 3 hours?
haha!
visit my aun.
talk a little.
and things like that.
walk around there and all.
train-ed home.
and here i AM.
blogging.
and entertaining syairazi.
haha.
best ke pe.
suddenly both of us boreddd.
haha.

"maklum la, heart beru kena campak dari petronas towers!"

haha.
nonsense talk ngan dia, DUH! ;D

seriously now.
i suddenly lose my mood to blog.

until whenever then.

2009-02-20T21:29:00.003+08:00

now im finally proud to SCREAM.
SCREAM k?
noy say tauuu!
SCREAM.

JURONGVILLE SECONDARY SCHOOL
National Police Cadet Corps [NPCC]
is now
a FREAKING GOLD UNIT! :D

*beams wideeeeeeeeeeeeeely.

im so proud of it!
because im part of it :D
(beams proudly)

i freaking hate mood swings.
beacuse im kept on having one nowadays.
and it seriously SWINGS y'know.
i just burst (k,not really)
just throw tantrums and show attitude.
uhhhhhhhhh!
this time of the month uhhh!

so im sorry if one way or another i hurt you people via my
stupidd mood swings. :D
especially.
SOFIA AINI! :D
omg girl.
only GOD knows how much i love you.

him wasnt there during training just now.
and i just, i d k.
just miss him, i guess.

hah.
i cnt really believe that sofia dont really like to see me like this every friday.
i cnt help it darlinggg. D:

so,i miss him.
and still,im hoping and dreaming that
one fine day.
him will talk to me.
we will have a decent talk.
and have a laugh.
a joke or two.
just a decent chat.
its been a while.

do i sound THAT desperate?
or maybe, i just cant move on that fast
like how i used to.
this things takes time.
loads of time.

im alone at home now.
and im bored.
because mum and dad.
they went to Penang.
until Sunday night.
and my sister got some camp at her school.
i an only with my grandparents now.
and im lonely.

i miss my sister.
Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyah.
i miss sharing my problems with her.
crying my hearts out.
pouring all my feelings.
venting everything to her.
and she will just listen.
and give stupid comments or remarks and make me smile.
i love her the best. ;D

please come home fast,sister.
i miss you.
and i need you now like drugggg.

Let me tell you a little stupid story.
about me and my lovely sister, aisyah. :D

two days ago.
i came home from school, all tired and mentally beat.
i had a bath change and have dinner.
mum and dad was not home yet.
and its ard 9pm.
Aisyah was sick.
and she was losing her voice that day.
she was on MC b t w.
i was stressed.
therefore,i kept on moaning.
"I MISS HIM...i miss him...i really miss him aisyah" while rolling on th bed.
trying to hide my tears with my Spongebob.
But, i could not fool her,because in fact she is my sister.
she knows me inside out.
She throws a pillow at me and said,
"Stop it hanna. i hate you like this. move on mann!"
I just continued moaning and trying very hard to not sound like i was crying.
i failed to deceive her.
and she found out i was crying.
"call him, talk to him" she said while sms-ing someone.
"he aint replying my messages!" i growled.
"do you think he got pissed and is trying to ignore and avoid me?" i continued.
"now,where did that idea came from? I dont think he is avoiding you,hanna. Cheer up" she sighed.
i brought myself together and jump off the bed.
thereafter, sat on the chair to use the computer.
and this is when.
the "DIS-STRESSING SESSION" with my yonger sister starts.
it was funnn.
we sangggg.
k we literally SHOUT at all the songs we played.
k,i was mainly th only one shouting to
Check yes Juliet.
Dear maria and
Fireworks.
haha.
my sister losing her voice so she just sang monotonously. ;D
but i finnally got her shouting with me with all the actions to Fireworks. ;D
haha.
it was nice.
we laughed so harddd that i cried.
and at the end of it all, i grew tired.
and this thing called "stress" suddenly dissapear.
and all she said was, "im so gonna lose my voice hanna. thnks to you"
haha.
i love dis-stressing session with her.
and now, she isnt here.
its hard to dis-stress. D:

if only i can hug my sister and kiss her.
but you know her.
she wont allow you too.
including me!
ME!
her very own older sister! ;D
whenever i trried she would either push me away
or slap my face.
IF she got th mood to be kissed,
she will just give me 3 seconds(?)
haha! ;D

cute huh?

i miss Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyah.
and
i miss HIM.

i cnt wait fr tmr! :D
omfg!

2009-02-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

Dulu kau pernah berkata,
Cinta kita tidak akan putus di tengah.

Dulu kau pernah berkata,
Hanya diriku yang bertakhta di sanubari mu.

Dulu kau pernah berkata,
Dirimu akan setia,
dirimu tidak akan berubah.

Dulu kau pernah berkata,
Walau onak berduri,
arus cabaran begitu kejam,
kita akan tetap tempuhi,
tanpa melepaskan diri ini.

Dulu kau pernah berkata,
Cinta ini akan sampai atas mahligai
yang bahagia.

Dulu kau pernah berkata...
PERNAH berkata...
PERNAH...

Kini aku sendiri,
hilang tanpa arah tuju
hilang tanpa dirimu.

Kini aku sendiri,
melalui liku-liku kehidupan
serta ketidakadilan dunia ini, diri ini.

Kini aku sendiri,
menagih cintamu yang masih belum pasti,
untuk insan ini memiliki.

Kini aku sendiri,
diteggelami memori-memori indah bersamamu
ditelan kesedihan
dihimpit kepasrahan
dibuai keperitan
dicengkam kecemburuan
dihantui kerinduan.

Kini aku sendiri,
tanpa dirimu di sisi,
dan tanpa kebahagiaan.
yang kian dirampas dan dihancurkan.

Kini aku sendiri...
AKU sendiri...
aku BERSENDIRIAN...

im CRUSHED! D:
like supersupersuper crushedddd.

got our verification slip just now for O's.
28 October, which happens to be my super sweet sixteeeeeeen.
SUPER SWEEEEET SIXTEEEEEEEEN!
is the O levels Maths Paper twoooo! D:
awwwwe~
tak leh celebrateeeeee!
maybe after ecause i dont remember a paper after that.
haha!
on a lighter note.
MAYBE LADY LUCK WILL BE BY MY SIDEE! (:
andddd theeeeeeeen!
i will pass my math.
*prays veryveryveryveryvery harddddd.

actually,
im not supposed to blog y'know.
seriously.
my body doesnt feel TOO good D:
so i should just lay down on my bed and do homeworks!
OH!
talking about homeworks,
i have cleared all the maths homework i owed Mrs Neo (:
and im very proud of that.
veryveryveryvery proud. (:
and i realise, listening to her lessons isnt that badd after all.
only that she gets distracted easily by the students who make noise.
haha.

nowadays,
i just feel like laying down on my beddd.
and just cryyy myself to sleep.
or just lay down and ignore whatever is happening around me.
maybe i need to find peace,huh?
life's been a little demanding nowadays.
but at least each week i have like a day whereby i have no remedials and CCAs.
like this week, its odd week.
and thursday, is th only day of th week i have NO activities after school.
and on even week, it will be monday.
and the rest.
remedials,remedial,practicals,CCAs and stuffs like that.
but it seriously isnt a waste of time. (:
i'll make sure it is all worthwhile
all the time spent and all.
y'know.
like ummmmm.
doing superduper freaking well for O Levels. :D
a day where im gonna beam at myself.
being proud and satisfied.
and at the same time, see a bright future ahead of me.
i cant really describe th feeling now,actually. =X
lets just wait and see.

my life like few days ago.
its a DOWNER.
like im so tired, lethargic.
and i simply have no mood to do stuffs.
plus the mood swings that will simply take control of me.
and i hate that.
because Sofiaaaa have to put up with it.
either way, we still laughed at each other at th end of th day. :D

andd all other lovelies who actually somehow, one way or another just simply make me smile
or maybe.
or maybe.
just talk to me. :D
haha.

i miss him badddly. D:
and now i just wish for a minute, an hour, a day spend with him.
or an hour or two just talking to him on th phone and suchh.
im not really hoping that baddly, this will happen.
but it isnt wrong to hope and wish it will come true.
afterall,
i DO believe in miracles and BIG dreams come true.